The Voice Within: by Xiet Enigma

The status of a muslim woman

2012-01-24T06:48:00.000+08:00

When she is a DAUGHTER, she opens a door of Jannah for her father,

When she is a WIFE, she completes half of the Deen of her husband,

When she is a MOTHER, Jannah lies under her feet

"If only everyone knew the status of Muslim Women in Islam, even the men would want to be women" - Sheykh Akram Nadawi

- Credit to Daughter of Ibadallah via her FB status

Sorry for the prev comments

2012-01-20T01:16:00.000+08:00

Dear friends,
Kepada sesiapa yang pernah memberi komen kepada blog ini semasa saya menggunakan IntenseDebate software, semua komen anda tidak dapat diselamatkan apabila saya menukar setting blog ini kepada setting asal (original setting)...

Semua komen anda amat saya hargai. Sedih sebab tak dapat nak mengekalkan komen2 tersebut (kenangan kan).

Harap maaf :((

Perigi cari timba - Hinakah?

2012-01-19T17:36:00.000+08:00

Sudah menjadi lumrah di dalam soal percintaan, kaum Adam dilihat lebih terkehadapan di dalam meluahkan perasaan, sedangkan kaum Hawa yang sinonim dengan sifat pemalu, lebih biasa menunggu dan mendiamkan diri berbanding meluahkan perasaannya kepada si teruna.

Di dalam sesebuah perhubungan yang baru hendak dimulakan, si gadis biasanya lebih selesa jika si teruna yang memulakan dahulu. Takut dilabel sebagai 'perigi cari timba' atau 'perempuan rendah akhlak dan harga diri', kadangkala si gadis lebih rela jika dirinya diulik tanda tanya dan teka teki. Maka hati pun menjadi gundah gulana dan jiwa menjadi tersiksa. Lagi-lagi jika si teruna seolah-olah memberi 'hint' yang positif. Lumrah sifat wanita, memang suka berfikiran banyak. Tambahan lagi memandangkan ianya sekadar 'hint' (sesuatu yang tidak pasti), maka takut juga jika ia disalah erti.

Sifat seorang lelaki budiman haruslah bijak mengatur langkah. Haruslah berani memulakan bicara. Namun, tak dinafikan tak semua lelaki mampu berbuat demikian. Mungkin takut jika diri dan permintaanya ditolak, atau merasa rendah diri berbanding si gadis yang disukainya, sesetengah lelaki lebih rela sekadar memberi 'hint' dan seringkali tidak pasti untuk memulakan langkah. Walaupun ianya dilihat tidak 'gentleman', namun perlulah di beri kemaafan kerana seorang lelaki juga adalah seorang manusia biasa, yang mungkin itulah salah satu daripada kelemahan dirinya sebagai seorang lelaki/manusia.

Dan sekiranya rasa sayang itu terbit dahulu daripada si gadis, adakah salah jika si gadis yang memulakannya dahulu?

Teladani Saidatina Khadijah R.A

Teringat pada bicara seorang sahabat ketika di universiti 4 tahun yang lepas, katanya jika sekalipun dia menyukai seorang gadis, tetapi tiba-tiba si gadis itu pula yang memulakan langkah mendekati dirinya, dia akan menolak si gadis itu kerana si gadis dilihat 'kurang sopan', 'tidak malu' dan 'tidak sesuai'.

Maka lupakah pada one of the greatest women in the world, wanita pertama yang mencuri hati Rasulullah - Khadijah binti Khuwailid?

Lupakah tentang cerita bahawa Saidatina Khadijah lah yang memulakan langkah pertamanya di dalam mengatur jodohnya bersama Rasulullah S.A.W? Maka adakah wanita semulia beliau dianggap perigi cari timba yang kurang akhlaknya dan rendah sifat malunya?

Namun, para wanita haruslah mengetahui cara-cara yang baik untuk memulakan langkah. Bukanlah dengan cara memberi hint-hint yang mengelirukan, atau menggoda si lelaki dengan cara-cara yang mampu mendatangkan syahwat, atau dengan istilah sekarang yang mudah difahami, dengan cara 'tergedik-gedik' atau 'mengada-ngada' di hadapan lelaki tersebut.

"Berhati-hatilah kalian daripada godaan dunia, dan waspadailah terhadap wanita, sebab fitnah pertama yang menimpa Bani Israil adalah fitnah wanita" -Hadis Riwayat Muslim

Kekalkanlah sifat malu dan jagalah maruah diri anda sebagai seorang wanita. Menyatakan hasrat hati tidaklah menggugat maruah diri anda, sebaliknya cara yang digunakan untuk menyatakan hasrat itulah yang perlu diteliti. Mari kita contohi sekali lagi bagaimana cara Saidatina Khadijah mengatur langkahnya menyatakan hasrat hatinya kepada Rasulullah S.A.W.

Saidatina Khadijah merisik Rasulullah melalui sahabat baiknya, Nufaisah Bt Munya. Cara ini dianggap lebih sopan dan selamat, kalau-kalau permintaannya ditolak oleh Rasulullah. Nufaisah juga pada mulanya merahsiakan identiti Khadijah. Beliau hanya menggunakan kiasan sahaja. Hanya apabila Rasulullah menunjukkan minat, barulah Nufaisah lebih berterus terang... Proses seterusnya (meminang dan menikah) adalah dimulakan oleh Rasulullah S.A.W dahulu, seperti mana adat masyarakat Arab dan cara-cara Islam sendiri.

Sekiranya seorang wanita itu mempunyai keberanian untuk berterus terang kepada seorang lelaki, maka lakukanlah dengan cara yang baik. Pendapat peribadi saya, tidaklah salah sekiranya seorang wanita itu bertanya secara terus kepada si lelaki, samada melalui orang tengah yang boleh dipercayai, atau secara sendiri (SMS, email, dan sebagainya). Asalkan caranya sopan :)

Dan kepada kaum Adam sekalian, jika seorang wanita menyatakan hasratnya kepada anda, ketahuilah bahawa wanita itu seorang yang mulia dan berani. Dia telah menepis rasa malu yang tebal, dan telah membuat satu keputusan yang amat sukar sekali. Hargailah usahanya sungguhpun mungkin anda terpaksa menolak permintaannya. Janganlah sesekali memperkecilkan usahanya, apatah lagi mengaibkannya. Ingatlah pesanan Rasulullah, tentang menjaga aib sesama muslim.

"Wahai sekalian manusia yang beriman dengan lidahnya, (namun) belum masuk iman ke dalam hatinya. Janganlah engkau sekalian mengumpat orang-orang Islam dan janganlah membuka aib mereka, (kerana) sesungguhnya orang yang membuka aib saudaranya yang muslim, maka Allah akan membuka aibnya. Dan barangsiapa yang aibnya di buka Allah, maka Dia akanb membukanya sekalipun di dalam rumahnya" - H.R Muslim, Abu Daud dan at-Tirmidzi.

Wahai wanita, sekiranya anda mahu berterus terang dan memulakan langkah pertama, ketahuilah bahawa anda patut berasa gembira kerana anda adalah wanita mulia dan berani. Tidak semua orang mampu melakukannya :)

* beutiful muslimah photo is taken from here

Contributing to society. Sincerely or by accidental.

2011-12-15T20:13:00.003+08:00

Couple of days ago, I had an email chatting with one of my friend. We talked about a few issues, including the opinion on how you may contribute to society....

Normally, when we talk about this issue, the fundamental of argument lies upon the urge to repay the country/society/government by working, after you have graduated. It's always awkward if you are a graduate student but you don't work....

I think the discussion should take into consideration many underlying factors such as what work you do, what course did you take back in U and whether you are working in the same field, and if yes, how much you earn and are you satisfy enough? and what kind of contribution we want to emphasize on (these are so far the most popular questions being asked by people, right).... because contribution per se is a general statement and it can bring you to many directions.

But lets take everything briefly....

Many of us have this kind of thinking: You have to enter university, strive hard, get good result, so that you can get good job, high salary - achieve self satisfaction and contribute well to society. End of story.

And in between that pathway, many of us think like this: OK, most important thing is just the certificate, and after that work. And since we owe money from the government (or earn scholarship), so we have to work in oder to repay to the society/government/country....

So now, whatever is in our thinking, the one common thing is, we have to work in order to give back to the society. Fact: Not all of us can afford to chase our dream ambition, starting from the course we'd been offered to enter the university... Many of us have to grab whatever we'd been offered, and when it comes to finding work, we have to do the same - don't be too choosy otherwise you're jobless. So don't bother much. Just work. (exception to those who'd been in the right track, already into your dream career. kudos guys)

I don't say that it is wrong. In fact, this is how it works, right? But is that all? You work, you contribute. You don't work, you screw.

Not many of us think of other ways to contribute to the society... Like doing voluntary work (within our job scope like 2+1 work and voluntary work, or out of the job scope, as our extra activity)

I am so glad and thankful to have the opportunity to know a lot of great people in my life. They are good people, really. Some of them are professionals (and you know how professional's life, busy, busy, and busy) but they still make up some time for voluntary works. These people inspire me to be a better person, and a better citizen.

And there are a lot of voluntary works we can do. In group, or individually... A lot! It's up to us to choose whichever we love doing. (Nama pun voluntary work kan, so up to us la)

Maybe we can't afford big contribution, but even the little tiny contribution means a lot to the ecosystem. Right?!

Of course you can contribute to the society and family, even if you are a housewife. Because giving contribution to the society doesn't just imply being a career person. As my friend said that he prefers if his wife is a career woman so that it's fair for both of them to have the chance to contribute to society and family, I think this is why I bring up the argument. You know, to perhaps open our mind for different way of thinking, or maybe to give fair opportunity to the jobless to stand up and think of the other way around, so that there's no excuse to be somebody with no money :-)

And thinking back, I am not sure how true is the claim that we work in order to return the favor to the society and government. Of course it is true in economic calculation. Especially through the income tax that you have to 'contribute', or shall I rephrase 'sacrifice' :P But is it really the society that we really concern about, or it's actually our own stomach? :)

Do we really care about how our job could tremendously affect our country development? and therefore, taking into consideration the opportunity he have had, plus the responsibility we are appointed, so we work hard everyday, don't waste the time with unrelated working loads during working hours, and don't play ass-kisser to be in good career position.

Or all we aim is the salary, and don't bother how decent way should we earn it...

Do we really care about what happen to the world, country and society?

Or let just say 'none of my business coz I don't get paid by being care.'

If we have both the quality (work wholeheartedly and earn decent salary + care about the society), then it's good... But if we're not?

So here...

I think we can claim that we are contributing to society by working sincerely (especially by means of economic value). But that's not the only way. Whatever we do for living, we can contribute... yes, even if we broke.

I think, after all, it's not about the contribution at all, but the awareness of being a good citizen. Haha.

And at least, by masuk U, you should be able to think wisely, and openly :)

P/S: Yang penting jangan lupa bayar balik hutang belajar.

Image taken from here

Seeking forgiveness from the Most-forgiving

2011-11-13T17:08:00.001+08:00

Hadith #42 of the 40 Hadeeth Imam Nawawi:

What a very beautiful hadith!

From Anas, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:

"Allah the Almighty has said: 'O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me, and hope in Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon.'"

[Recorded by Al-Tirmidhi, who said that it is a good and sound hadith]

We talk about friendship

2011-10-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

In my whole life, I believe in friendship. But there was once where I gave it up. Allah had tested me with a ‘wrong’ person in a so-called friendship. But that was years ago, back in my secondary school. Alhamdulillah, when I entered campus life, Allah had given me the chance to meet loads of wonderful people.

In a nutshell, I grew by friendship. I treasure amity as I treasure my family. Some time ago, friends had always come first. I’d gone through my teenage days with my friends. I shared love stories and girls secrets with friends. I laughed with friends, and cried with them too. That is why, if you notice, I write quite a lot about friendship in here.

That is because in my whole life, I believe in friendship, and I grew by friendship, too.

I have a theory. The secret of a good friendship, like any other relationship, is love. You know why? Because love holds some kind of super power that able to melt the heart. Love teaches you to be compassionate and forgiving. Love makes you having a big heart and teaches you how to build respect and trust. Love gives you memories. Memories cling. They don’t just disappear. Memories keep friendship alive, albeit after friends go apart.

I have another theory. Anyone can never judge friendship by quantity. No matter how many people you have known, in the end, those who stick with you are your true friends. But you can’t be calculative. You stick to your friends even if they choose to abscond.

With friends, you sometimes act like a nanny. A real irksome! That’s because you love them. But when they choose to split up, you’d hush away and wait. When they come back to you, you’d accept them with an open heart. That’s because you love them, too. Thus, you respect their verdict.

With friends, you sometimes act like a child. You coddle yourself in a cocoon of friendship. You take comfort from them for almost everything, even on something a little too trifling. You share stories, even the silly ones, then laugh or cry over each and every of them. You take late phone calls and sacrifice your sleep for friends. But when they choose to walk away and start their new life without you, you'd hush away and wait. And when they do not come back, all you could do is pray and wish that they are just fine. Sometimes in the dark night, when the memories visit, you’d snivel in despair. But that is all. You can’t forget them, never mind to hate them. Coz love binds. And love is all that lingers.

People come and go. Our friends do. But friendship remains, if we never let it go. Every now and then, we smile for the memories we’d kept since the friendship begin. We weep over the pine for our long-lost friends. And always, we pray for our beloved friends.

Friends come and go. And you can’t ever stop them from walking away. But it’s up to you to create a further distance or to make it closer. Otherwise, just stand still so that there'll be no place for awkwardness.

As the thoughts about friendship lie here, my own story conceals somewhere in my heart.

Dear my arch nemesis,

I hope you are just fine. I know there is no way you could reach here. And that is all the point. This entry is specially for you. -XOXO-

photo: http://theredboa.blogspot.com

Xiet Enigma

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Tolong tengok Tahajjud cinta. Saya ada share kat cerita tu. Hehe

2011-09-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Tajuk tu macam promo je kan? Share konon. Share apa? Setakat share feeling2 time tengok citer tu buat apa? :P

Assalamu'alaikum friends,
Lama tak update belog. Tapi kawan2 lain pun lama jugak tak update belog. Korang update la. Meh kita sama2 update bagi mengubat kerinduan masing2. Hehe...

OK back to the topic. Sekarang ni kalau Jumaat malam, pukul 9PM, TV3 menayangkan sebuah drama bersiri bertajuk Tahajjud Cinta. Xiet sempat tengok episod pertama tapi tengok gitu2 je. First impression cerita ni tak berapa best. But after a few series terlepas, Xiet berpeluang lagi tengok citer tu pada beberapa episod seterusnya. But still, langkah2 episod...

Tapi selepas beberapa episod ditayangkan, Xiet dapat tahu yang cerita ni dikatakan mendatangkan kontroversi. Ada sebilangan orang islam yang tak suka cerita ni ditayangkan dengan sebab ia dikatakan mengkucar kacirkan dan memfitnah Islam, menghina wanita berpurdah dan pesantren.... Biasalah kan masyarakat kita ni, kalau ada rumors kata benda2 negatif and berlaku boikot terhadap sesuatu perkara tu, orang suka terus percaya tanpa usul periksa dan ikut boikot... So, untuk tak merasa diri ini pun sama je macam statement yang sendiri cakap, Xiet pun tengok la cerita tersebut untuk beberapa episod supaya justifikasi yang dilakukan lebih adil.

My personal opinion, overall cerita tu sangat menarik sebenarnya. Plot cerita dan garapan skrip sangat matang. Scene dan penggambaran pun menarik! Cuma tak dinafikan cerita ni boleh dikatakan sebagai 'berat' kerana ia melibatkan perbincangan soal2 agama dan melibatkan penyampaian ayat2 suci Al-Quran dan hadith2 di dalam perbincangan2. Kesimpulannya, cerita tersebut memberi banyak ruangan untuk kita berfikir.

Persoalannya, berapa ramai di kalangan kita yang mahu berfikir apabila menonton drama?
Persoalan kedua, berapa ramai pula yang bersedia untuk terbuka terhadap cerita2 berunsur perbezaan pendapat dan 'luar dari kebiasaan' genre cerita tontonan masyarakat kita?
Persoalan ketiga, adakah penerbit drama tersebut benar2 bersedia dan mengkaji impak dan implikasi drama yang ditayangkan apabila mengambil kira persoalan pertama dan kedua?

Ada pendapat mengatakan bahawa cerita tersebut dilihat mencemarkan nama ustaz2 dan sekolah agama. Pada pendapat Xiet, perkara2 seperti ini berlaku di dalam masyarakat kita. Walaupun biasalah standard sesebuah drama tu before start akan cakap cerita ni takde kaitan dengan yang hidup atau mati tapi sebenarnya samada secara keseluruhan, sikit-sikit atau sipi-sipi, keadaan seperti yang digambarkan di dalam drama ni wujud di dalam realiti. Berapa ramai kes manusia yang bertopengkan jubah, tudung dan kopiah untuk menutup kejahatan mereka? Bukanlah mereka ini orang alim, sebaliknya mereka adalah orang jahat yang menjual agama bagi menutup kejahatan mereka, dan perbuatan mereka boleh memburukkan agama.

Drama adalah salah satu wacana terbaik untuk meleraikan salah faham yang membelenggu masyarakat kita selama ini. Kalau nak mengenengahkan dan meleraikan isu, macam mana nak ditonjolkan masalah tersebut jika watak2nya semua baik2 belaka? macam mana nak menjadi sebuah cerita? Macam mana nak menyampaikan mesej? Maka penonton tak boleh la nak marah kalau watak ustaz tersebut dilihat jahat contohnya. Sebab, memang objektif cerita tersebut untuk menyatakan bahawa tak semua yang dilihat alim itu benar2 alim dan mempunyai kredibiliti seorang alim. Walau bagaimanapun, drama juga boleh menjadi punca kepada salah faham itu sendiri sekiranya strategi yang dilakukan tidak tepat.

Ada 3 perkara penting ingin Xiet sampaikan dan kongsikan khusus terhadap drama bersiri Tahajjud Cinta:-
1- Cerita berupa 'counter back' macamni agak bahaya untuk dijadikan cerita bersiri. Sebabnya mudah. Tak semua orang dapat tengok cerita ni setiap episod. And memandangkan skrip dan genre cerita sebegini memerlukan kefahaman yang betul, dan tak semua orang arif tentang topik2 yang diketengahkan dalam cerita ni, maka sangatlah bahaya cerita macamni dijadikan bentuk bersiri/episod. Tapi masih boleh untuk dijadikan cerita berepisod sekiranya setiap persoalan yang dilontarkan di dalam episod tersebut, di jawab di dalam episod yang sama....

Xiet mendapat feedback daripada a few friends yang muslim tentang drama ni. Ada beberapa yang cakap masa tengok tu menyampah dan terus stop tengok. Bukan menyampah pada jalan cerita, tapi pada watak Ustaz Shauki (kiranya Eman Manan memang power la tu. Hehe). And ada jugak yang taknak tengok dah sebab cakap cerita ni confusing. You see, even orang Islam sendiri pun boleh rasa cerita tu confusing and ada unsur2 kontroversi terhadap agama, apatah lagi kalau non muslim yang tengok. Xiet rasa hal ni tak jadi isu kalau setiap episod mempunyai jalan penyelesaiannya. Cuma fahamlah kalau nak tengok dari segi keseluruhan cerita, memang tak menarik dan tak suspen la kalau setiap episod dah ada kesudahan. Maybe itulah target penerbit dan penulis skrip. Nak jadikan cerita tu menarik sehingga ke hujung, tapi mestilah kena tengok sampai ke hujung cerita!

2- Berkenaan dengan hadith2 yang diambil dan dijadikan fakta hujah. Xiet bukanlah ahli hadith. Dan sebilangan besar penonton juga bukan dikalangan ahli hadith. Maka sebab itu Xiet harap hanya hadith2 yang sahih sahaja dimuatkan di dalam hujah2 mereka. Bukan apa, mungkin kerana kebijaksanaan susunan plot dan garapan emosi, bila Ustaz Shauki berhujah, hujahnya sering nampak kukuh. Dan bila Ustaz Shauki mengutarakan hadith2 dna ayat Quran bagi membela diri dan perbuatannya tu, memang sometimes terasa yang Islam tu memang berat sebelah. Xiet tak pasti samada memang ini adalah effect daripada garapan emosi dan susunan plot yang baik, atau memang hadith2 tersebut bukan hadith yang sahih. Sekiranya memang benar penulis skrip menggunakan hadith yang tak sahih, dan tujuannya memang nak bagitau yang ustaz shauki tu hanya mencedok apa2 sahaja kata2 dan hadith2 asalkan dapat mempertahankan diri dan nafsunya, maka perlulah di kaunter pada waktu/episod yang sama jugak. Tapi sekiranya hadith yang dijadikan hujah memang bukan hadith2 yang sahih dan penulis skrip tidak sedar akan hal ni, memang ini adalah satu kesalahan yang tidak boleh dimaafkan!

Apa yang Xiet perasan, cerita ni pada satu2 episod memang nampak yang Ustaz Shauki tu memang hebat dan cakap dia sentiasa benar. Memang masing2 watak di dalam berdebat mengeluarkan hujah berdasarkan ayat Quran dan hadith, tetapi Ustaz Shauki yang paling banyak. Contoh kalau dia marah wife dia si Seri tu. Segala macam hujah dari Hadith keluar. Tapi Seri tu membatu je tak melawan. Padahal ada hadith2 dan ayat quran lain yang menjelaskan kesalahan Ustaz Shauki tu....

And Xiet puji wata Citra yang memang pandai berhujah dan tegas. Watak Citra memang satu watak yang penting untuk menyampaikan objektif sebenar cerita ni. Tapi tiba2 masa Ustaz Shauki cakap Citra tu berfahaman Islam sekular dan takde scene dibuat untuk back up kebenaran Citra dan kesalahan fakta Ustaz Shauki tu, Xiet agak kecewa sebab katalah non muslim tengok cerita ni, or tak pun muslim yang confuse... Tak ke dia rasa oh, Islam yang terbuka dan kelihatan baik macam Citra ni rupanya sekular. Lagi2lah nak lawan ketokohan watak Ustaz Shauki tu kan, memang nampak benar lah label yang Ustaz Shauki berikan kepada Citra tu... So Xiet rasa ini yang membuatkan cerita ni menjadi kontroversi. Sepatutnya pembikin drama ni kena lebih sensitif dan kreatif. Memang tak mudah, tapi dah itu kerja korang kan?

3- Cerita begini adalah sebuah cerita yang mengajak kita berfikir, bersabar dan tidak melulu menunjukkan reaksi. Bertentangan dengan sikap manusia, biasanya baru 'tercuit' sikit, mula nak melenting. Sebab tu mungkin ramai yang tidak memberi peluang kepada cerita ni sehingga akhir dan kemudian baru kita nilai dan kritik habis2 an, serta memberi teguran yang sewajarnya kepada penerbit dan konco2nya sekiranya berlaku kesilapan. Atau jika nak mengkritik dan menegur sebelum penyudah cerita pun tak menjadi masalah, tetapi biarlah dengan keadilan dan hikmah.

Kadangkala muslim sendiri yang terlalu cepat melenting dan tidak mahu berfikiran terbuka. Contohnya, bila cerita berat begini ditayangkan dengan tujuan yang baik, tetapi dek kerana kita yang malas nak berfikir dan tidak mahu belajar untuk mendalami lagi ilmu agama kita, drama macam ni pulak yang kena marah dan kena boo. Senang cerita, kita yang tak tahu, tapi marahkan sesuatu perkara yang diluar pengetahuan kita, padahal perkara tersebut tidak salah dan kita yang jahil....

Xiet tak cakap Xiet salahkan penonton 100% sebab memang terdapat beberapa isu yang memerlukan pembaikan daripada pihak pembikin drama tersebut. Jangan dianggap hal yang dilihat remeh tu tidak mampu memberi impak negatif kepada persekitaran/masyarakat.... Namun, kepada umat Islam, bagus anda prihatin. Tapi cuba kita lihat sisi yang positif kepada drama sebegini supaya dapat kita ambil pengajaran daripadanya. Jika mahu mengkritik, kritiklah berdasarkan ilmu, bukan emosi semata2. Prihatin itu baik jika kena pada tempatnya. Jika kita bandingkan drama sebegini dengan drama2 yang tiada hala tuju, tiada pengajaran yang jelas dan banyak memberi impak negatif kepada masyarakat, bukankah drama seperti Tahajjud Cinta ni lebih intelek, lebih mematangkan fikiran dan lebih bermanfaat? Mengapa kita tidak mengkritik drama2 lain yang tiada unsur2 islamik langsung? (kalau nak cakap pasal isu agama la kan).

P/S: Apa2pun, I respect watak Citra dalam cerita tu. And cerita ni memang banyak mainan emosi (marah dan geram paling banyak). Jom kita tengok apa kesudahan cerita ni. Then baru kritik lagi. Hehe

P/S/S: Lupa nak masuk point budak2 blaja timur tengah yang banyak tak suke citer ni sebab katanya menghina niqobis and scene masa kat sana tu percintaan dorang tak islamik langsung. OK, part ni Xiet setuju yang Erma Fatima FAIL dari segi nak memahami bi'ah kat negara Timur Tengah, especially bi'ah budak2 belajar agama kat negara2 Timut Tengah. Apa daa, kalau ada pun yg tak thiqoh macamtu, tak patut erma fatima ikut yang minoriti tak thiqoh macamtu... patutla depa marah! Tapi, dalam masa yang sama Xiet rileks je tak la melatah sampai nak marah suruh kritik keseluruhan cerita sebab 1) Xiet bukan berniqob dan belajar kat sana 2) Dah marah sebab isu tu tapi nak boikot keseluruhan cerita buat apa? Kasi teguran sudah. Padahal berjuta2 orang lain boleh tengok cerita macamni and boleh ambil pengajaran yang baik. Takkan just because kecik hati dengan kesalahan Erma Fatima tu pastu nak boikot terus and orang lain pun tak dapat tengok dah. 3) Herm... I have a lot of friends yang nampak je alim OK. As in Islam hanya untuk mereka dan merekalah ahli syurga. tapi ini bukan isu di sini. I better cut this off. Hehe...

P/S/S: Asyik komen pasal drama/filem, dah taknak jadi saintis eh? Tukar bidang pulak? :)

Oh Allah, please forgive me

2011-08-27T05:56:00.004+08:00

Alhamdulillah, we've been given the opportunity to perform the Isya' and Tarawih prayers in Masjid Negeri for this past week. And there's one day where Syeikh Sa'ad Sai'd Al-Ghamdi lead the prayers (Imaam). I still remember how bliss it was when he recited the Al-Quran. Memang menusuk ke hati. Bukan sekadar bacaan nya yang merdu tapi mostly because he knew what he was reciting... And among all the ayaah that he recited, there's one that'd made my heart melted and my tears burst. At that time, I wasn't remember the chapter and verse number. I just caught the meaning. Bila balik, I pun cariklah ayat yang dimaksudkan. And it's an ayaah from surah At-Tahrim:-

يَـٰٓأَيُّہَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ تُوبُوٓاْ إِلَى ٱللَّهِ تَوۡبَةً۬ نَّصُوحًا عَسَىٰ رَبُّكُمۡ أَن يُكَفِّرَ عَنكُمۡ سَيِّـَٔاتِكُمۡ وَيُدۡخِلَڪُمۡ جَنَّـٰتٍ۬ تَجۡرِى مِن تَحۡتِهَا ٱلۡأَنۡهَـٰرُ يَوۡمَ لَا يُخۡزِى ٱللَّهُ ٱلنَّبِىَّ وَٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ مَعَهُ ۥ‌ۖ نُورُهُمۡ يَسۡعَىٰ بَيۡنَ أَيۡدِيہِمۡ وَبِأَيۡمَـٰنِہِمۡ يَقُولُونَ رَبَّنَآ أَتۡمِمۡ لَنَا نُورَنَا وَٱغۡفِرۡ لَنَآ‌ۖ إِنَّكَ عَلَىٰ ڪُلِّ شَىۡءٍ۬ قَدِيرٌ

" O you who believe, turn to Allah with a faithful repentance. It is hoped from your Lord that he will write off your faults, and will admit you to the gardens beneath which rivers flow, on the Day when Allah will not disgrace the Prophet and those who believed with him. Their light will run before them and to their right hands. They will say, “Our Lord, perfect for us our light, and forgive us. Indeed you are powerful over every thing.” _At-Tahrim, 66:8

I'm sinful. And I just hope that Allah will forgive me. and so that I can follow the path of Rasulullah and the sahaabah. And so that I can be with the believers in Paradise.

P/S: How's your last phase of Ramadhan this year? How's preparation fot AidilFitri? Feel free to read my previous entry about Hari Raya: Sunnah ke tak amalan kite.Kalau nak baca click sini
Sekian terima kasih :-)

Hayya bil 'arabiyyah @ TV Al-hijrah

2011-08-22T17:20:00.003+08:00

Cube baca tajuk tu mengikut lagu tema hayya bil 'arabiyyah dalam radio IKIM.FM. Hehehe...

Do you know about one new islamic channel named TV AL-Hijrah? Xiet dapat siaran tv ni a few months ago but the coverage was very bad. Tapi sekarang dah cantik dah...

I should give pujian to those yang mengusahakan dan menjayakan siaran ni. Why? Sebab ia adalah satu alternatif channel yang sangat bagus. Banyak memaparkan cerita-cerita bercorak pendidikan samada secara direct atau indirect, terutamanya pendidikan agama Islam. Lagi-lagilah bulan Ramadhan sekarang ni kan. Banyak la kuliah2 ilmu disiarkan.

Sejak mengikuti siaran tv Al-Hijrah ni, Xiet perasan pemilihan drama2 dan filem2 nya lebih universal. Ada beberapa cerita yang ditayangkan datang dari negara timur tengah. Ada juga dari negara sempadan, mengisahkan kehidupan masyarakat Islam di sana. After all, all the dramas are worth watching. Pendek kata, dapatlah kita tonton cerita2 yang luar dari kebiasaan kita. Dapat juga belajar cultures mereka. Sungguh umatnya Islam, tapi cara hidupnya, culturenya berbeza. Menarik!

Cerita2 bersifat discovery pun banyak. Antaranya tentang siri The Sign of The Creator by Harun Yahya, tentang sejarah saintis2 muslim, dan macam-macam lagi lah...

Paling Xiet suka, ada banyak cartoon yang bersifat mendidik seperti cerita tentang kisah2 nabi dan surah2 di dalam Al-Quran. Sesuai untuk kanak2 macam Aaron Houdd. Mostly in English pulak tu. Terbaekkk!

And ada satu perkara yang best untuk diri Xiet sendiri, iaitu boleh sharpen Arabic. Ada beberapa siaran memang dalam Bahasa Arab. Sangat lah sesuai untuk otak Xiet yang dah berkarat ni belajar balik bahasa Al-Quran tu.

Masa sekolah menengah dulu Xiet boleh faham dan bertutur sikit2 dalam bahasa Arab. Cuma Bahasa Arab skema la (fushah). Bukan bahasa pasar ('ammi). Yelah, belajar kat sekolah pun kan Bahasa Arab fushah. Dulu masa sekolah biasalah budak2 suka hafal karangan kan. Tapi Xiet tak suka hafal. Kalau exam, perah la otak sampai kecut untuk buat karangan sendiri. Tak kisah la kelam kabut pun, tapi Xiet suka buat sendiri supaya boleh meningkatkan bahasa itu sendiri. Alhamdulillah, masa SMA form 4 pun result tak mengecewakan. Dapatlah Jayyid jiddan. Lagi 3.3% je nak Mumtaz. Time tu memang frust la jugak tak dapat mumtaz tapi bila tau takde orang dapat mumtaz kat sekolah tu and tu kira result third highest kat sekolah, hati tak la keciwa sangat. Hehe...

And ingat lagi dulu kadang2 kalau nak cakap something yang secret2, Xiet dan kawan akan cakap dalam arabic and campur2 sikit dgn bahasa lain. Hehe... Tu kira penyalah gunaan pelajaran bahasa tak ekk?

Lepastu masuk U, ambil bidang Sains kan. Confrim2 la tak de sepatah perkataan pun menggunakan bahasa Arab sebagai bahasa perantaraan. Time tu masih menebal lagi kecintaan dalam Bahasa Arab. Time tu masih boleh dengar Mona Jasman (Ikim.Fm) membebel2 dalam Bahasa Arab.

Tapi lama kelamaan bila dah tak praktis, makin luput la skill memahami and bertutur dalam bahasa tu. Yelah, macam bahasa lain jugak, B.Inggeris misalnya. Kalau lama tak cakap kan bila nak cakap tu mula la kurang confident. Vocab pun lari entah ke mana...

Terakhir Xiet test power adalah hujung tahun 2009, masa tu Yusuf Qardawi datang Masjid Negeri. Masa tu Xiet pregnant Aaron Houdd 6-7 bulan. Memang ada translator tapi Xiet berusaha untuk faham direct dari beliau. Herm... memang rasa berkarat la time tu sebab dah tak dapat faham semua. Dapat faham sebahagian aje.

Sekarangni, dah semakin jarang sangat membaca, mendengar atau bertutur dalam Bahasa Arab. Paling2 pun time recite Al-Quran and hadith je. Tu pun, kebanyakan hadith dah senang dah. Ada translation english or malay lagi...So tinggal time baca quran je lah.

Perkara paling Xiet suka tentang arabic ni adalah memudahkan penghayatan ketika solat dan membaca quran. Memang satu bonus yang tak ternilai harganya! Bila baca quran tak payah la sikit2 tengok translation. Dulu boleh la, sekarang ni sayangnya dah tak macam dulu. Masa terawih pun sedih je sebab sekarangni secara keseluruhan, Xiet hanya boleh faham dalam 20-30% je kalau Imam baca ayat2 yang Xiet tak familiar and tak hafal. Teruk kan?!

So sekarangni memang perasaan nak belajar balik bahasa arab sangat menebal. Lagi2 bak kata hubby, kena prepare la kalau kena lepak 'sana' lama-lama, kenala tau bahasa depa. Takla rasa susah sangat. Huhuhu...

Xiet bercita-cita nak ajar Aaron Houdd Bahasa Arab jugak. Tak rugi. Kalau kita boleh belajar Spanish, French, Mandarin, Korea, etc... So why not bahasa yang boleh menambah kefahaman kita di dalam mempelajari Al-Quran, dan juga membantu menambah kekhusyukan di dalam solat... Kan?

1Malaysia: A chain is no stronger than its weakest link

2011-08-15T16:03:00.006+08:00

ehsan google

What happen to the world nowadays? Am I being stupid all this while? Or am I too slow to digest the reality? So many conflicts arise nowadays. Mostly are political related!

Never mind about the world today. Let us narrow the scope. Let just focus on our beloved country, Malaysia. What happen to Malaysia nowadays? Have you noticed?

We’ll be celebrating our 54 years of Merdeka Day (Independent Day) end of this month. It’s a half century of journey, a long way have passed by. It’s an age of a wise, mature man who embraces millions of life experiences, if we could transform this into human form.

Living in multiracial cultures for 54 years should signify living in harmony. It should be like living as a big family. If a married couple achieve pure understanding, tolerance and deference by these long years, so should Malaysia. If we can accept differences in each of our siblings, than we should’ve accepted differences among races.

But personally, I think Malaysians are not mature enough to live in multiracial country. I don’t see respect in a real mean is truly employed in our life. I’m not talking about being racist. Racist at some points are obligatory. It’s our nature to become racist and protect our own race and religion. Whoever ask me to stop being racist, I think he is out of his mind... and hypocrite. If you are not racist, others are. So you’re implying a dream philosophy.

What I want to bring here is the way we cope with other races. We should be fair despite races and religions. We should learn about other’s cultures than only we can show respect towards them. How can you respect others if you don’t know their cultures? For instance:

1) You say you respect Indians but you ta-pau them meat for lunch?

2) You say you know Malays well enough but you invite them for liquor party.

3) You’ve been friend with many Malays but you still unaware that adultery is prohibited in Islam and so you offer him a sexy chick.

4) Or you (Malay) insulting the Chinese for eating swine as filthy and disgusting as the swine

5) You live in an Islamic country but you complain about the Azaan (prayer calling)

6) You scold the Chinese for eating in public during Ramadhan but aren’t they are not supposed to fasting so why scold them?

7) You panggil the India as Keling in front of them, purposely to insult them.

8) You just can’t tolerate each other and keep pointing fingers at each others’ cultures or beliefs.

That’s why it is so important to learn and know about other races. We don’t have to agree to their beliefs, fair enough to at least take note on main issues, so that we don’t cross the border in our says and actions.

I was raised in a village of Malays as majority. I obtain my education in Islamic schools. I don’t have many non-Malay friends. But that’s not an excuse for me to not learn about other races, because I am Malaysian.

I went to the churches to learn Christianity. It was one of the best moments in my life because I’d got the chance to learn other religion from its believers, in their sacred place. I’d got the chance to join some of the ceremonies, eat the food they’d prepared and talk about our beliefs for a change. From there, I met a few Chinese and Indian friends too. Hence, I wasn’t just learning Christianity, but I’d learnt mixture of cultures as well. The moments were wonderful because it succeed to show our respect to each other. It’d portrayed real harmony. If some of you readers by now have taught I was tried to be converted, you are wrong. Learning other religions has made me appreciate Islam even more.

Alas, that situation is really rare in reality.

“Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom”_Aristotle.

This simple quote from Aristotle holds big meaning. I love the idea that we must first know ourselves before we know others. We must show respect to ourselves before we demand respect from others. By all means, we must be honest for who we really are, and portray honesty in front of others. Honesty... is another difficult thing to do. Because honesty against hypocrisy.

We often fail to make others respect us and vice versa by denying the real facts (the truth about our races, religions and cultures). We are not ready to open our heart to admit those facts. We are not ready to have an open discussion. Therefore we fabricate issues. Later, we claim them as sensitive issues. As it happen, someone has to apologize and the issue will be closed unsettled.

Some issues are real sensitive. Racial issues are among the most popular. I don’t think we should let the issue sealed unsettled. By doing this, we let our multiracial country in danger. If no fair explanation and justification is made, everybody will hold grudge by the misconceptions and sooner or later, it might explode!

But there are so-called sensitive issues with no fundamental sentiments at all. There are either came from some depraved political parties for their stupid political games, or by some groups who’d been so long avoided to see the real facts. This kind of so-called sensitive issues are mushrooming the upstream media.

I hate when politics interfere racial issues because consequently we won’t get to know the truth. When they say they want to settle the issue, they often make it more revolting! It’s either they are ignorant to see the later impact could jeopardize our harmony, or that is their actual target- to jeopardize our harmony for their personal objectives.

I did mention that Malaysians are not mature enough to live in multiracial, multireligious and multicultural country. But the fact is, we are living in one country, and we've been living with this for more than 54 years now. So let’s work together to achieve harmony in this country. Don’t get oversensitive by the propaganda done by some irresponsible groups, and say NO to the politicized racial issues!

P/S: Please accept the fact that each of our races has weaknesses. If you fail to accept your weakness, and rather fabricate them as sensitive issue, you are living in denial....

P/S 2: The most common claims- Melayu: Pemalas, banyak mat rempit and penghuni teramai pusat serenti. Cina: Kiasu, selfish and tak reti respect orang. India: Samseng, pandai cakap tapi tak pandai bikin... Betul atau tidak, kita sendiri boleh tau. So tak guna kita overreacted terhadap benda macamni. Yang penting, proof to others that we are good people :P

P/S 3: Terselamat lah bangsa2 lain. Hehehe

Xiet Enigma

Shah Alam

Pesta Ibadah a.k.a The festival of worship

2011-08-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

What, nak lagi self reminder for this ramadhan?
Tapi nak yg stylo2 yang highly motivated tapi jugak yang rilek2? (banyak cekadak)

OK2. Jom tengok yang ni pulak.
two versions are available. both are awesomeeeee! ngeheee...

P/S 1: Don't just watch and smiling dude. Let's improve.

Malay version

English version

P/S 2: Feel free to read my previous post reagarding ramadhan. Please click here. :P

I LOVE YOU Ramadhan by AimanAzlan

2011-08-04T16:05:00.001+08:00

So busy this Ramadhan huh? Yeah, yeah... So many things to catch up on life rite? Time is shorten by the traffic jam, the preparation for iftor, the taraweh prayer...

Don't have time to feed your soul with tazkirah, ceramah and all?
All right, all right....

So let brings tazkirah here,
Don't worry.... it won't take long. I bet its worth your 9 minutes 5 secs.

It's a good reminder for us especially during this Ramadhan... And I think all the points fit us all the months. So let's try them this ramadhan month and inshaAllah keep them up the other months as well....

KEY POINT IS : PATIENCE.

Happy watching lads! :D

Salam Ramadhan, 1432H

2011-08-01T15:01:00.001+08:00

Jame Al-Asr Mosque, Brunei Darussalam. 17/7/2011

A visit with a bestie

2011-07-30T16:46:00.006+08:00

Hi there,
OK, how to start? where to start?
Seriously, lately I have no motivation to write about anything in my blogs. Many things to share, but no desire to write.

So, I choose to write something light and easy....
Two days ago, I went to my sis's nest. I call it a nest because that's where she's been hiding from the sun for quite sometimes. A very nice, neat, nest. (how about that, a new tongue twister huh?)

Since I have not meet any of my 'alien' bestie for quite sometimes now, and I am so long for having silly discussion with them like we used to do back in our undergraduate years, so yes, that meeting was something I really looking forward to... And as expected, it came with great avail... I mean, the discussion, and the severe headache. :P

Two important things I want to share about the visit are an open discussion we enjoy doing the most, which I can say this culture is something I hardly find just anywhere, and the friendship that I treasure from the first day it began.

Talking about the discussion. Yes, we may discuss about any issue with anyone. But who can discuss about sensitive topics like race, politics, khilaf in some religion issue (mu'amalah issues) etc. freely without hesitation? Of course with your friend rite? And what kind of friend would accept being disagreed against his/her opinion with an open mind and no heart feeling? Of course the friend whom the relationship is created with love and compassion. rite? I respect those who can agree to disagree. Those who can have serious disagreement in the discussion, but later, after the discussion would have tea together, laugh and share life experiences just like usual. And Alhamdulillah, I have been given the chance to know such human. Such friends.

One thing I remember in the discussion, we talk about our future plan. What would we do in the future? Where would we be?

And we have come to one thing: No matter what we do, where we are, it's good to have us together every now and then for some discussion like we always have in the past, so that whatever we do for living, we don't stop thinking critically and being productive. Yes we can read, we can watch from tv, we can gain knowledge one way. But with two way process like discussion, we can gain more, and most importantly, we can check whether our belief is on the right path, and our principles are correct. It's a good check and balance process though.

It might be something we over-do and over-love... Syok sendiri la tue. But it's a good tool to sustain a friendship. Even if some issues couldn't have solution right away, but at least we have good time together. And that is fair enough :-P

I'm looking forward to meeting my other alien friends; one of them is in Hulu now, playing with monkeys and tigers. (Hikhikhik. Jangan marah na)

Some preparation...

2011-07-27T01:25:00.000+08:00

Hujung minggu pertama - Ke Ipoh dan Cameron Highlands. Pulang pada hari Selasa, dan hujung minggu berikutnya ke Brunei selama 4 hari. Tanpa Aaron. Pulang pada hari Selasa. Satu malam (Rabu) di rumah bersama Aaron, Khamis pagi sudah bertolak ke Tg. Sepat untuk workshop. Tanpa Aaron lagi. Kali ni Aaron cuma ada Daddy. Jumaat petang pulang ke rumah. Daddy pula pulang puklul 4.30 pagi (gila kerja). Sabtu petang giliran Daddy ke Penang. Kali ini Aaron bersama Ummi pula. Ahad, Daddy pulang. Semalam, hari ini dan esok, Aaron ada Ummi dan Daddy. Khamis dan Jumaat, Daddy ke Bintulu pula... Aaron tinggal dengan Ummi...

Dan jadual seperti ini berlanjutan sehinggalah menjelang Aidilfitri nanti...

Dan mungkin ini adalah persediaan awal untuk sesuatu yang lebih besar dan berat di masa akan datang.

From the time I was told about that news, I hardly sleep well at night, thinking of so many things. thinking of how am I going to catch up in this very short time.

It should be something really exciting. I should be thrilled by the news, shouldn't I? But it turns out less than expected. It is instead something that will change our life, something that could make our life turn up side down. Still, it is something big that we both are looking forward to experience it, something that we both have decided to face it together.... InshaAllah...

P/S1: My friend buat joke : Laki kau suke kerja balik lewat2, kekadang sampai suboh baru balik, tak takut ke dia buat 'hal' belakang kau

I answer: Aku dah bgtau dia. Kalau dah gatal nak kawen lain cakap depan2. Jangan sorok2. Jangan tambah dosa sia2. Nanti mati masuk neraka baru tau...

Cakap bio teghang, ye dok?

P/S 2: I hate the nights without Aaron. Seriously. I dah rasa masa kat Jepun, and I tak suka rasa macamtu lagi.

Something worth reading (for truly Malaysia)...trust me!

2011-07-14T01:25:00.008+08:00

OK. I know this is quite a long entry. a serious one though. But trust me this is something worth reading. how do i know it? because I'd read it.

As an intro, I was reading one of my sis's latest entry when i later discovered this article, linked by her. Her writing was inspiring enough, but that linked article lit up the mood even more.

FYI, I was there during the BERSIH 1.0 rally. I wasn't there for the rally. I just couldn't remember why my hubby and I were there that day. The only thing I remember is we went to SOGO and few other nearby places.

And at that moment, I was shock by the keamanan of the rally. It was first, started in peace. Ramai orang, but takde yang mengamuk sakan koyak2 baju or baling2 batu. But then, everything changed when the police spread the gas pemedih mata, out of the blue!... Although we were already out of the area when chaos happened, but we can still see it clearly....

For the BERSIH 2.0... I takde langsung any intention to join. I am really sick with suck politics here in malaysia. I have no heart to take part in anything anymore... I totally don't agree with those who bring along their kids to the rally. I am a mother. I would never support that. My kid is my whole priority. I don't support the fanatics either. But I am more against the brutal made by one side to terror the other side. I got agitated every time I watch buletin utama and any other news yang memperbodohkan minda orang. I get angrier with those who are easily influenced by one side source, yang ternyata berat sebelah.

But this girl (the writer of the below article) is awesome! She has strength to ascertain her stand. She has taken all the courage to be herself, holds her own stand with the decision she has made meticulously, wisely. thumbs up!

I went to the rally as a spectator. I returned a believer. And I had ice cream with the FRU.

By Charis Ding

I went as an individual rather than as a supporter. Whenever asked throughout the day, I told people "I just wanted to see what’s going on". And that was the truth.

In the weeks leading to it, I was undecided whether to support the rally. Right up to yesterday I couldn’t decide. But I knew I didn’t want to stay home or watch from a distance. I didn’t want to just follow the news online. I had to see it with my own eyes. So I decided to do a walkabout, and I thought perhaps it would take being there to help me make my stand. And so as I was there I considered myself an observer – a reporter.

The police presence at the Pasar Seni area was overwhelming. In front of Central Market, four or five blue trucks in a row. Tension on the streets. It was eerily quiet. On Petaling Street, I walked past a small sized aunty in a yellow shirt (: I overheard her words to a few young boys around her – "We must stay united" she said - "that’s why we must wear yellow, to show we are united". I smiled as I passed.

I saw that the flower shop was open and bought a bunch of daisies.

There was tension in the air, the sense of waiting for something to erupt. At Masjid Jamek, there were more policemen than civilians. I took note of their batons, their weapons. The air was oppressive. I caught myself seeing the men in uniform as the antagonists – weren’t they on the other side? But then I realized they were supposed to be our friends. It is their job to protect people like me.

I sat with the other people from various media. On the side of the road leading to the stadium, huge intimidating FRU trucks were lined up. POLICE barricades. After a while hanging around, I decided to wander across those borders. Some of the police, leaning against their truck, looked straight at me. I smiled, they smiled back. Phew. I walked by a bunch of intimidating looking FRU people staring at me. Right across the road from Dataran Merdeka, I stole a picture of one of them leaning on the back of his truck. He called me over. We chatted.

It's tough, he said. They’ve been here and there all week, hardly with any sleep. Staying watch to make sure everything’s alright. Sometimes they sleep in the trucks. They were there until the wee hours of the morning yesterday, and came back early in the morning. If he could, he’d rather just have a quiet Saturday, stay at home, watch TV.

I nodded because I understood.

I spoke from my heart – it shouldn’t be this way. We should all be friends … we are friends.

Apa nak buat? There is always a chance of those who will cause trouble, he said. Don’t hang around here, he advised. It's not that safe today.

A motorcycle tried to pass, carrying packages in plastic bags. Not wanting to distract him or get him into trouble, I took my leave. Told him to jaga baik-baik. He said "nice to meet you".

I started back across to the other side. Halfway, I came across a bunch from the FRU surrounding an ice cream man, buying ice cream in buns. "Ais krim!" I kinda exclaimed. I was beside myself. "Ambik lah", they said. "Which one do you want? Cornetto?" Just realizing that I had pretty much imposed upon them to belanja me ice cream, I said – "Takpe takpe, saya beli sendiri".

"Takpe, bayar sama sama" – one of them said. They insisted I pick one.

"Where you from?" – they asked in English. "Here", I said – "saya orang sini saje". They laughed, "oh, ingatkan orang jepun!"

As we stood around with our ice creams, they asked me who I was. Did I come for the rally? "saya cume seorang gadis biasa" I said. They found that very amusing. "jangan-jangan ada t-shirt kuning dalam beg tu".

I laughed – "tak de lah…".

Then what was I doing there? "Saje mau tengok", I said. "cume ingin tahu".

"Baguslah tu", he said. "But you shouldn’t hang around today, it might not be safe". I asked them, "Apa khabar?". "Ok", they said. A bit tired, they hardly had any sleep. Ada rase tension? "Tension tu, sikit-sikit mesti ada lah".

We finished our ice creams, and I said goodbye. "Jaga diri", I said. "Jumpa lagi".

I just had ice cream with the FRU.

Right after I crossed the barrier there was a commotion and the media was running towards where I had just came from. They were apparently mobilizing.

About twenty minutes later, I was in the middle in front of the Maybank Tower with the throngs of people on my right and the FRU line on the left. The crowd had just gathered, they weren’t even moving forward yet. The FRU shot water cannons. It was unprovoked. Then the gas came. When it hit, I couldn’t see, I couldn’t breathe. And it hurt. I grabbed some water from my bag and washed my face with it. I covered my face with my baju. In the chaos, one, two people offered me salt. "Makan", they told me. It really helped. I crumbled and sat on the corridors for a minute, eyes and nose watering.

I got up and kept walking, now amongst the people. Some looked me in the face, Chinese ladies speaking in Mandarin, Malay men in Malay, they seemed shocked and concerned. I must’ve looked a mess. "Are you ok?", they asked me. I tried to smile and nodded.

Soon, people started running. From a distance I saw the men in dark blue chasing the marchers. So many of them. People were running down the hill slope at the Maybank Tower compound. Nowhere to run, they jumped down the hill from some height, scampering across the streets.

I ended up in Pudu, watching the marchers and listening to their shouts of "Hidup Rakyat!". When we had to run later, at one point it was tricky to escape and we had to climb a railing at Pudu station. In the huru-hara, the man beside me, instead of just climbing up himself, was yelling to his friend – "Tolong amoi ini dulu!" He seemed more anxious for me than he was for himself, or even I was for myself.

Then it started to rain, and I thought – God Himself has intervened.

Once more, I had brothers who were concerned enough to ask me if I was ok. I followed the crowd and met some young men who had come all the way from Pahang for this. We ended up in front of the Chinese Assembly Hall, where a huge crowd had gathered. The police formed a human barricade, arms crossed, and barbed wire at the entrance of the road just a short distance from the Stadium. A. Samad Said came and talked with the policemen. Such a frail man, but so strong.

We sang Negaraku … and we sang it from the heart.

We dispersed soon after. I heard someone asking others to kutip sampah before we left. Retreating, suddenly part of the crowd broke into a run. There was a big group of police chasing from behind. Just as soon as we wanted to run instinctively, others said jangan lari … bertenang. Relaks saja. And we all calmed down again. It was like that the whole day – anytime there seemed to be a chance for rowdiness or chaos or violence, the people themselves would calm each other down, keep things in check.

Meeting up with my friends who were in the KLCC group, we exchanged stories. My friend Jagadev was at the frontline. He had been hit by teargas seven times that day, and he has a battle wound from where a canister hit his leg. But the bulk of what we spoke of wasn’t of hatred or anger – but a sense of passion, of new hope, and of solidarity as a people.

"It seems we’ve got pretty decent people", I mused as a passing comment. I didn’t know how true it would turn out to be but it was immediately confirmed.

So many stories. My friend, caught in the rain, had a Malay man hand her some papers for her to cover up from the rain.

Hit by the full brunt of the tear gas, Jagad, along with a few others, stopped to help a man who had fallen down. He was heavy, too.

When someone tried to shout, incite others and burn a Patriot t-shirt, the rest immediately stopped him, silenced him and removed him from the group.

We are a decent, civilized people. What we experienced that day - Malaysia.

Later on at dinner with a different group of friends, the conversation was about our nation. This was rare. In the fifteen years I’ve known them, I don’t think we’ve ever talked together about politics, or our nation, or playing a part in it. At least, not like this. But that night, they said to me – because of you guys, we've decided we are going to register to vote.

They too caught the passion. The unggun. They too were upset over how the government had reacted to the rally, and the statement made by the Bersih marchers is loud and clear. I think it was a statement of hope that they caught. Tens of thousands of Malaysians who went out for a better nation. It’s a call that we can no longer disown or detach ourselves from, because we are in no way a lost cause.

In the midst of this conversation with my friends, something amazing happened. Following Bersih stories on Twitter, we talked about how good Malaysians can be … we remembered certain events and openly admitted those from other races who have been kind to us. And we confronted our stereotypes of always painting them a certain way.

A distinct thought came home to me then: Malaysia, I do love you.

That night we said cheers, to a better Malaysia.

By the end of the day, I discovered I referred to the marchers and myself as ‘we’, no longer ‘them’ and ‘I’. It is because we were there together, as Malaysia. We helped each other and cared for each other as Malaysia. There was no political agenda with the people there – I was there, I experienced it and I know it. It was Malaysia, embracing in our hearts and our actions the hope for better government.

What I experienced on the 9th of July is Malaysia. We are decent people, we are a people of quality. Those in power who are selfish or bigots or who try to divide the people – that is not Malaysia, and they are not deserving of Malaysia. Those who try to taint and politicize the beautiful events of that day, are not deserving of Malaysia. We are a people who deserve much more than that.

We came out and proved that yesterday. It has proved to me, to the marchers who were there, to my friends, what Malaysia is.

And so, on 9th July, Malaysia won.

source: Malaysia-Today

(Please take note that this is my personal opinion as an independent individual of a democratic country)

How do you confront death?

2011-07-04T13:54:00.006+08:00

Everybody is going to die.

We are going to die...

If not today, maybe tomorrow... Or 6 months from now, or 50 years later?

That is it. Nobody knows the time he holds his last breath.

But death is absolute.

Do you believe in death?

Knowing and believing is different.

If you know about death, you just know, and wait.

If you believe in death, you may have a better approach to confront death.

You might want to prepare.

How to prepare?

How to confront death?

By that, you will learn how to live your life to the fullest. You would want to be more involved in your life certifying your very act to benefit your afterlife. You’ll ensure everything you do is meaningful, and you’ll ensure your presence in life retain purposes.

By that, you’ll always have enough of what you possess and you’ll always feel grateful and content. You’ll appreciate everything around you, even the simplest and seem to be the less important ones.

By that, you’ll strive hard for what you want, for every breath that you are embracing, for the chance that you are given to improve yourself day by day, while awaiting the death. You’ll do more good, less evil.

By that, you’ll know how to live.

And you’ll certainly know how you want to die... Even when you have no idea when will death visits you. Especially when you have no idea when will death visits you!

-Everybody dies, but you choose whether you want to die with honour, as the person forever lives in every known heart that is still living, or as nobody, easily and instantly forgotten- Xiet Enigma.

" ...Say: Short is the enjoyment of this world. The Hereafter is (far) better for him who fears Allah, and you shall not be dealt with unjustly even equal to the Fatila (a scalish thread in the long slit of a date-stone). Wheresoever you may be, death will overtake you even if you are in fortresses built up strong and high!....." - Annisa (4), partial of verses 77 & 78 -

Xiet Enigma

Shah Alam

The hardest thing(s) to do....

2011-06-15T23:38:00.003+08:00

is to say
I'M SORRY....

to sincerely admit our mistakes....

is to say
YOU ARE FORGIVEN...

to forgive people, especially to those who give us major heartbroken....

BUT
If we can fulfill these two, we'll get the most powerful & wonderful thing in return.....

PEACE & HAPPINESS IN LIFE

because forgiving is the highest, most beautiful form of love,
and to seek forgiveness is a special thing that only the strongest heart can do.

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. ~Paul Boes

Image courtesy of Cliff(cliff0108)

"And the men and the women who remember Allaah much with their hearts and tongues. Allaah has prepared for them forgiveness and a great reward (i.e. Paradise)" [al'Ahzaab 33:35]

Xiet Enigma
150611
S.Alam

Quick update

2011-06-09T16:03:00.005+08:00

Pehhh... Lama sungguh rasanya tak update blog. Tak kisahlah mana2 blog... Padahal dalam blog archive ni ada 2 draft yang tak dipublished... Satu kisah NurKasih the Movie, satu pasal Takdir.... Mood tengah tak best lak nak proceed entry2 tersebut....

Kali ni pun, bukannya ada pape nak share ngn korang pun...

dah tu, buat pe menyesakkan page?

Tapi boleh la kalau nak update perkembangan diri sikit kat sini.... taknak la lost contact ngan kawan2 kan. Almaklum, Xiet kan takde facebook.

Bajet orang nak tau perkembangan kau la...

Adik cakap, kalau takde facebook, bermakna anda seolah-olah tak wujud

OK. Sekarangni, Xiet dengan rasminya ingin berkongsi dengan anda sekalian bahawa:-

1) I'm not pregnant! I'm just getting fatter. Pffftttt!

2) I am semakin sengkek sekarang. Baru tadi habiskan dekat rm3K from my own savings untuk bayar yuran pengajian (tanggung sendiri, bajet kaya, harap maklum)....

3) 2 hari tak tidur properly sebab a) Aaron takde, b) siapkan proposal yang sebenarnya 7 m/s je tapi amatlah terkedek-kedek untuk menyiapkannya.... (tapi takleh challenge Prof, Xiet bagi tengah hari semalam, malam tadi pukul 10.44pm dia dah reply email Xiet. Giler dedikasi!.. And lega yang amat hanya minor correction n sikit grammar mistake je...)

4) I am semakin sengkek sebab sekarang dah start jumpa doctor berkenaan masalah spine, and kena jumpa dengan dia 3 times per week for one month (each time cost me RM85).... Klinik Swasta, nak wat cane.Huhu.

5) Last Monday, my first time watching 3D movie. Kungfu Panda 2! And as you know, hari Isnin tak ramai manusia, so kitorang enjoy watching the movie with me yang cakap kuat2 menunjukkan betapa batak/perak/amazing nya la dengan effect 3D. Xiet kejap pakai spek 3D tu, kejap bukak, kejap pakai balik, pastu bukak balik, just sebab nak tengok perbezaan 3D and 2D.... (next target, of course Transformers)

6)I am semakin sengkek sekarang.....Pssttt..... boleh minta bantuan zakat tak? Dengan alasan fi sabilillah! Hehehe... (mesti hubby bengang je dengan soklan ni)

Oh, ini aje nak bagitau....

Sekain, ~TaTa~

Xiet Enigma

09062011

Jasa yang tidak terbalas....

2011-05-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

Hari ini, kita semua mempunyai hala tuju kehidupan yang tersendiri.

Tak kiralah apa pekerjaan kita, di mana level kejayaan kita, apa pun latar belakang kehidupan kita... Ada satu perkara yang kita miliki bersama; Langkah pertama kita bermula....

Samada kita seorang doktor, pensyarah, engineer, orang gomen, hatta suri rumah sekalipun... Kehidupan dan kejayaan yang kita kecapi hari ini bermula daripada pendidikan asas yang kita perolehi ketika kecil dahulu...

Setinggi mana pun jawatan kita hari ini, kita tak mungkin mampu membaca jika kita tidak mengenal ABC.

Sehebat mana pun pengaruh kita hari ini, kita bukanlah sesiapa jika tiada yang mendidik kita untuk berakhlak mulia.

Adakah kita masih mengingati wajah mereka yang mula-mula membawa kita mengenal huruf dan angka?

Sungguhpun kita lebih berjaya daripada mereka, namun mereka lah orang yang lebih banyak jasanya kepada kita.
Merekalah ibu bapa kita,
guru-guru kita,
sahabat-sahabat kita....

* Terima kasih kepada:-
Ibu dan ayah - yang telah banyak melaburkan harta dan tenaga untuk pendidikan Xiet. Xiet ingat Xiet mula membaca seawal umur 5 tahun... Dah boleh baca surat khabar masa tu, walaupun merangkak-rangkak... And Xiet hafal do'a Iftitah dan Al-Fathihah ketika umur 5-6 tahun jugak... Ayah dulu ajar ngaji garang giler. And Xiet dulu bebal giler. Dia pernah rotan Xiet dekat tangan guna hanger sampai hanger patah sebab Xiet tak hafal2 Alif Ba Ta...

Cikgu Ramlah, Cikgu Tadika Xiet. Cikgu Ramlah adalah di antara orang yang mula-mula mendidik Xiet mengenal huruf, angka, dan sebagainya...

Ustazah-Ustaza sekolah agama, terutamanya Ustazah Siti Rohani, ustazan darjah 3 Xiet yang Xiet sayanggggg sangat...

Teacher Hajah Salwa, teacher masa darjah 6. The only teacher yang ajar Xiet bahasa inggeris dengan penuh dedikasi. Dulu Xiet suke english sebab teacher ni lah. Pastu sekolah menengah tak suke dah sebab teacher selalu tukar2, tak masuk kelas dan sebagainya....

Dan semua guru-guru yang mendidik Xiet samada secara langsung ataupun tidak...

Tak lupe juga kepada mereka2 yang menjadi pencetus dan penyebab Xiet mengenal FCR, Interfaith Dialog, critical thinking, and yang sewaktu dengannya.... Sebab 3 tahun belajar di UM dulu, Xiet bukan sahaja dapat ilmu dan sijil tentang kursus yang dipilih, tetapi far beyond that... Xiet belajar agama, ukhuwwah, kehidupan, berpeluang mengenali para ilmuan yang hebat2, dan macam-macam lagi.... Whoever you are, wherever you are, you guys are special in my heart...

Sebab tanpa adanya kalian, tanpa wujudnya langkah pertama tersebut... Maka tiada lah Xiet di sini, seperti hari ini...

Dear You, si stalker...

2011-05-23T13:18:00.006+08:00

I know you will read this. because I know you are one of my silent readers. Not just to my blog, but to other friends' as well. Be it through their blog, facebook, or any other social networks ever exist in this world. How do I know this? Trust me you wouldn't want to know.

I don't mind if you want to read my blog. Would be really appreciate if you even drop some comments. And I don't mind either if you choose to be a silent reader... coz we are friend. and we will always be, inshaAllah...

But let me tell you this. I don't like stalker. You know what I mean? There's a huge different between a friend and a stalker. Friend wants to update other friend's life for the sake of ukhuwwah. You know, like to get to know how's her current condition... To know that she's alright. And to be happy with whatever of her current achievement.

But stalker?
Well I don't know... Maybe (obviously) to stalk. Just to update someone's achievement. Or even worse to know down to the scrap about his/her personal life, or something that she/he doesn't want you to know? ....And perhaps, to justify her life happiness? Or to compare with yours? Na'uzubillah...

I think you have so many other things you need to catch up in your life, other than just to stalk. So less time to spend for blogging and facebook, you get my point?

By the way, I'm just telling you my point and my stand. It is up to you to continue being an excellent stalker or not. It's your life, it's your choice. But if you ask me, like I said, I wud be happy if you come out as a friend, not as a stalker.

P/S : Dear my fellow readers. This is not a random entry so please don't get offended. To my dear friends yang selalu mengomen dan membaca, I love you guys.Semoga ukhuwwah kita kekal. Ccececeh...

To my new blogger friends, even though we never meet each other in real life, but you guys are my friends already. And i'm happy to be your friend as well...

To my silent readers whom I don't know who you are, thanks for reading. blog ni tak bagus and tak best tapi korang nak baca jugak so thanks a lot. luv you guys.Hehehe...

But to You, my dear friend, you shouldn't be a stalker... coz you are supposed to be my friend. Stalker is meant for in between rivals, or whatever related to it. Not for between friends...

Last but not least,
I'm sorry if this entry seems a bit harsh or offensive... :)

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Latest update on 24/5/2011

This morning, a friend of mine text me about this entry, checking up on me... That's very thoughtful of her.
And so, here, I would like to add in some other points...

I think facebook, blog, friendster, YM etc are of good communication tools, only if you make good out of them. And you wouldn't want to be labelled *as what this title has described* by:-

1) Literally asking your friend on YM whether she/he has a facebook account without even starting the conversation with Hi, and when the answer is NO, you end the conversation right away, without a simple good bye. This is jerk man. Seriously, cant you keep in touch just via YM? Or have you forgotten cell phone?

2)You are more interested on your friend's current achievement over her health condition....And you are willing to dig into each and every of his/her close connection to stuff yourself with whatever you've been aiming for.

Come on guys, stalking your secret admirer is completely normal. Stalking your lecturer/boss's blog or facebook can be considered OK, well, like everybody is doing that, right? Stalking your rivals is somewhat some people call it strategy. But stalking your friend? Oh gosh, I prefer if you ask me right on my face whether I'm having shit my entire life, or whether my hubby drives me bananas, or even how much do I earn every month.... you can get more satisfactory answers directly from me (-_-)/

Tolong sevey rumah boleh?

2011-05-21T10:16:00.001+08:00

Dah lama rasanya tak update blog ni. Konon nak update pasal citer Nur Kasih the Movie. Tapi malam tadi tak sempat nonton sebab full house giler2... Takla rasa terkilan sebab I'm not into romantic-sedih2 genre... Tak suke ah nangis2 kat panggung, nanti keluar hidung merah2...Eyewwww (gaya matluthfi)...

Akibatnya, terwujudlah entry bertajuk di atas...
Al-kisahnya, my hubby ada intention nak beli rumah. We plan to buy a landed property for our second house ni lah. Sebab first house yg kami beli masa bertunang dulu is an apartment (yg kami duduk sekarang), and the future plan is actually for investment purpose.

Bukanlah nak beli sekarang-sekarang jugak. Saja servey dulu. Kalau dapat yang berkenan di hati boleh la dishortlisted and kalau ada rezeki boleh la beli, inshaAllah....

Target area... SHAH ALAM, yang berdekatan dengan Pusat Bandar. Kira-kira around SS 9,11,7,8,4,3 Di Kayangan, Bukit Bandaraya... Kalau SS 2 pun kira OK lagi lah...

Target house... Kalau boleh, nak bunglow (itu Xiet yang nak. Hubby tak nak pun. Hehe)... Tapi of coz la tinggi sangat impian tu. For now cannot lagi la. So, kalau dapat Semi-D, or Double-storey Linked (preferably corner lot) pun dah OK sesangat...

Sekarang ni, hampir semua rumah baru yang under development atau tengah on sale dekat area2 yg disebutkan telah kami servey and hasilnya, harga paling rendah yang mereka tawarkan adalah RM1.1 million untuk semi-D or linked house corner lot.... Pehhh.... Zaman sekarang dah main juta-juta dah ek, zaman dulu 400K pun dah rasa macam nak muntah darah.

Untuk memiliki rumah berharga RM 1 M++, rasanya tak berapa nak sesuai dengan kondisi kami sekeluarga sekarangni.... *Hint: Agak2 la beb, hubby baru kerja 5 tahun, pastu rumah yg ada sekrang ni pun tak habis bayar lagi, kereta lagi, anak lagi... Oppppp... Isteri lagi (penting sekali ni).... Herm, memang tak la kot nak beli rumah RM1 million...

So dengan ini, kalau ada sesapa di kalangan para pembaca entry ni yg tau ada rumah2 baru atau rumah lama yg on sale, yang berada di dalam radar yg disebutkan di atas dan memiliki harga yang berpatutan (kalau 850K boleh consider lagi kot)... Sila lah roger2 di halaman komen di bawah OK...

Sekian terima kasih :)

A sad love story...

2011-05-10T18:52:00.003+08:00

I found this in my archive. Never thought I could write something like this. Not because it is good, but because it is cheesy.Haha. (Is it?). Anyway, just want to post it here and i hope the person that had been the reason of this story ever exist are in peace now.

P/S: I'm dedicating this post to whoever having tough situation about love.... and its alliance...

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Once upon a time, there was a boy who fell in love with a girl. He loved her very very very much. He dreamed of marrying her.

But then he met a man, someone who also loved the girl very very very much. And he knew that the man was much much much better than him, and would make a better husband for her than he ever could.So he let her go, and he told the girl that she should accept the man if he approached her, and the boy told himself that he too should let go of the girl.

And so the man and the girl became a couple, and when the girl told the boy about it he was sooo happy for her. He was happy for her because he knew he had done the right thing, and that the man would make her very very very happy, and that was all that mattered to him.

But at the same time, even though he was happy for her, inside his heart, it hurt. It hurt very very very much. And the pain didn’t go away. He wanted to forget her completely, but she was still his friend and he knew she would be upset if he stopped being her friend and he couldn’t bear to do that, so he did his best to still be her friend. But the pain didn’t go away.

Sometimes he cried himself to sleep. He did not know what to do. Sometimes he would meet the girl and the man, and he would smile at them, because he was happy for them and wanted them to think he was happy.

But the smile felt fake, it was like a mask he wore over his face, and inside his heart he felt like dying.

Everyday, he felt like dying. He felt like there was a hole inside his heart, a big empty hole that could never be filled. And the pain refused to go away.

He made some stupid things during that time. He made a big mistake that he will always regret and never forgive himself for. Before this, he had thought he would be strong enough. But he wasn’t strong. He was weak. It hurt so much inside. He didn’t know how he could withstand it. He didn’t know how he could survive and keep on living.

I wish I could tell you that something happened to him to make the pain go away. I wish there was some kind of event that magically made all his problems go away. But that only happens in stories. In the real world, there are no magical solutions to our problems.

But then...the boy survived. I wish I could tell you how he survived, but even he doesn’t know how he survived. The pain was there - the pain never goes away, not ever - but over time, eventually, he learned how to get used to it. Slowly, eventually, it stopped hurting him so much. The fake smile he used to wear has gone away, and now the smile he wears is true and genuine, especially when he meets the girl because he really is happy that she is happy.

But even now, every now and then, he will remember what he used to dream… and the pain will come back, as strong as before. The love has never changed and never will change. He thought he could change it and has someone else can substitute her place in his heart, but he was wrong.

And the pain...he has gotten used to it. He knows how to deal with it, and the pain doesn’t affect him like it used to.

The boy is happy. Life isn’t perfect, but this life is never perfect, it is only the next life that can be perfect. And more than anything, he knows he did the right thing. He made the right choice, no matter how much it hurt him. And that is all that matters.

There is no magical solution to our problems. When it comes to matters of the heart, there is no pill we can take to make the pain go away. All we have is time, the support of the people we love… and our own strength, and our faith in God to give us the strength that we need.

Everybody has their own sad story in their life. It might affect the action but always remember that whatever we do, there are consequences that we are responsible for. Yes, it hurt…and it hurt so much. But don’t ever lose hope because we have Allah The Almighty as our very best friend…

You ARE strong enough to withstand situation like this (if this ever happen to you). I know you are. Why do I know this? Because God never gives a soul a burden more than it can bear (2:286). God loves you. God tests you because He knows you are strong enough. That boy in the story - he didn’t think he could survive either. He didn’t think he was strong enough. But in the end he survived. He found strength that he never knew he had - strength that God gave him so he could withstand the test.

LoVe,

xiet_enigma….

An excellent muslim sportswoman...

2011-05-07T05:08:00.000+08:00

When Ruqaya Al Ghasara won the women’s 200m final at the recent Asian Games in Doha, she became the first Bahraini born athlete to win a major international athletics gold medal.

2004 - She became the first Muslim woman from an Arabian country to compete at the Olympic Games.

2005 - She was the first woman to ever win a race at the West Asian Games, when the Doha-hosted competition allowed female competitors for the first time ever.

But her most treasured first of all came in December last year, when she returned to the Qatari capital for the Asian Games and won the women’s 200m final, with the best time of 23.02 (-0.8m/s), placing her in the world’s top 60 and nicely poised to make a serious assault on the world scene in this coming year.

The 24-year-old, who also won bronze in the 100m, became one of the icons of the four-yearly multi-sport spectacular, both for her achievements on the track but also for her choice of clothing.

She was asked ‘What is it?’,
‘Why are you wearing it?’
She answered,

“It’s not just a matter of wearing a piece of cloth. There is something very special about wearing the hijab. It gives me strength. I feel lots of support from society because I am wearing the Islamic hijab. There is a relationship between the hijab and the heart.”

“I have a great desire to show that there are no problems with wearing these clothes.Wearing a veil proves that Muslim women face no obstacle and encourage them to compete in sports”

So let's hope for more muslim women to unleash their talents in sports.

aRen't We ProuD To Be MuSlimS?

Credit to google for pics

Tanda-tanda penyakit Wahan!

2011-05-05T19:44:00.012+08:00

Salam,

Korang ingat tak satu hadith tentang ni;

“Hampir tiba suatu masa di mana bangsa-bangsa dan seluruh dunia akan datang mengerumuni kamu bagaikan orang-orang yang hendak makan mengerumuni talam hidangan mereka.” Maka salah seorang sahabat bertanya “Apakah dari kerana kami sedikit pada hari itu?” Nabi SAW menjawab, “Bahkan kamu pada hari itu banyak sekali, tetapi kamu umpama buih di waktu banjir, dan Allah akan mencabut rasa gerun terhadap kamu dari hati musuh-musuh kamu, dan Allah akan mencampakkan ke dalam hati kamu penyakit ‘wahan’.” Seorang sahabat bertanya, “Apakah wahan itu hai Rasulullah?” Nabi menjawab, “Cintakan dunia dan takut mati.” – HR Abu Daud

I knew this hadith when I was in secondary school kot. And masih ingat tentang hadith ni sampai sekarang. Every now and then, hadith ni macam suddenly pop up from my head, especially when I'm kinda lost in my own temporary world ni....

Apa yang best sangat tentang hadith ni?

Wei, ada ke hadith yg tak best? Ok, tak best kalau hadith tu maudhu'. Tapi hadith ni sahih OK!

Basically, Hadith ni menceritakan tentang peristiwa akhir zaman di mana walaupun umat Islam ramai, tapi umat Islam lemah. Kuantiti tidak melambangkan kualiti. And dalam hadith ni sendiri menyatakan bahawa kelemahan umat Islam adalah berpunca daripada umat Islam sendiri.... Sebab apa? Sebab umat Islam akhir zaman lebih cintakan dunia dan benci/takut mati!

Kita kan umat Islam akhir zaman kan? So hadith ni cerita tentang kita lah kan! Adakah kita penyumbang kepada kebanjiran umat Islam akhir zaman yang macam dalam hadith ni?!

Erm... OK, macam mana nak tau kalau kita cinta dunia dan takut mati ekk?

Kat sini ada beberapa tanda-tanda yang kita boleh buat check list.

1. Kalau solat susah nak khusyu'... Dalam solat tu macam2 nak pikir. And biasalah, semua berkisar tentang hal2 duniawi.... Biasa time solat la baru teringat benda yang hilang, baru teringat ada kerja yang tak siap, dandan time tu terpikir macam2 idea bernas. Pendek kata semua benda lah teringat....

P/S 1: Sebagai manusia biasa, memang la kita mungkin susah nak dapat kekhusyukan 100%. Tapi kalau percentage khusyuk hampeh sangat, mesti ada something wrong somewhere kan?

2. Kalau dah mula nak berkira banyak perkara.... Dalam dunia ni, tak semua kebaikan kita akan dibalas dengan kebaikan yg setimpal, terutamanya yang bersifat material. So kalau dah semua benda baik yang kita buat kita tulis dalam buku 3 5, dan berharap dibalas dengan kebaikan jugak, macam ne tu ek?

3. Bila kita dah mula sebok mementingkan persepsi orang terhadap kita.... Dan kurang mementingkan persepsi Allah terhadap kita. Bila kita rasa penting sangat untuk menjadi sempurna di mata manusia sehinggakan sanggup melanggar panduan agama

4. Bila kuasa menjadi kepentingan utama.... Kita nak rasa berkuasa, sebab kita rasa hebat, sebab kita rasa diri kita penting, sebab kita rasa kita bagus sangat, sampai kita buat apa saja untuk menjadi berkuasa...

5. Bila kurang masa untuk bersama Dia. Yelah kan, kita cuma ada 24 jam sehari. Kalau solat lama2, ngaji banyak2, nanti tak dapat la nak buat banyak benda. So cut masa solat dan ngaji, top up kat tempat lain...Yang semua hal duniawi!

6. Bila sedar buat jahat, tapi lambat bertaubat.....

P/S 2: Inilah yang Xiet rasa, berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri. Kalau korang ada lagi kayu ukur yang boleh dimuhasabahkan bersama, boleh la share jugak.

“Say: ‘Short is the enjoyment of this world. And the Hereafter is the best for those who do right. And you will never be dealt with unjustly in the very least. Wherever you are, death will find you out, even if you are in towers built up strong and high.” [An-Nisaa, 4:77-78]

Wallahua'lam

Xiet Enigma

Shah Alam

27/4/2011

The Climb...It Cheers me Up.

2011-05-01T15:12:00.002+08:00

He cheers me up... he always does!

There are times where I feel really messed up, where I feel like giving up...
There are times where I don't want to finish what I'm struggling, and simply want to end the story there, close the very chapter, and start the new one with a new hope...

There are times....

And at this very moment, I'm touched by this song, and I'm feeling all right.
{Tears after tears after tears, and eventually there's a smile} (",)

Xiet Enigma
Shah Alam
22/4/2011
-this entry is auto published-

Cik adik kena paksa join organisasi ke?

2011-04-24T21:47:00.005+08:00

Nak gelak besar-besar dekat tajuk di atas....Kakakakakakaka!

Stop being annoying Xiet!

Ok la, takmo bebel panjang, hangpa tgk la si MatLuthfi ni bebel sorang2.... Mamat ni besh, Anwar Hadi pun Besh. Tapi Anuar Sajari paling best OK!...Apa, cikgu Shida? erm....erm.... saya tak layan lawak slapstik mcm cikgu shida (sorry cikgu shida, saya mmg kurang reseptor gelak sikit) tp cikgu shida mmg rock....teringin nak belajar dengan cikgu mcm cikgu shida. Mesti kelas sgt havoc and best...

OK OK... jom layan video ni!

P/S: Kepada kawan2 undergrad yg anda tau siapa anda.... amacam, korang terasa tak tgk video ni? Ada rasa nak tergelakkan diri sendiri tak? Hehehe... Tapi apapun, organisasi la yg mendekatkan dan membina ukhuwah kita kan. Thankful for that (eh eh, emo lak)

Xiet Enigma
Shah Alam

To wear the hijab or Not?

2011-04-21T16:20:00.006+08:00

Salaam,
Baru-baru ni Xiet ada dapat soalan daripada seorang rakan maya yg belum pernah Xiet jumpa secara live. Sister ni ada tanya satu soalan yang Xiet rasa menarik dan terpanggil untuk berkongsi soalan dan jawapannya di sini... Erm, kalau korang ada tambahan jawapan or komen or idea or pape je lah, sila lah jgn malu utk share ye.

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Question:

As you know, I was a part time model and now still working in the entertainment industry. I have great interest in changing my appearance, particularly on covering my hair. The thing is I’m not very sure of the decision I’m making and it changes periodically. I’d tried wearing the veil but my friends laugh at me and criticized my passé look, as that’s what they claimed. I wish I am like my sister, who’d converted later but is more knowledgeable and stronger than me…. I need your opinion Sis.

Salam Sis,

Pardon my poor English, but I hope you can still understand my points (^_^)

I understand your situation in which wearing the hijab (veil) is quite wacky in your surroundings. Having the intention to wearing the hijab is a good thing already. It means you have Imaan (faith) in your heart. Alhamdulillah Sis, Allah has given His Guidance upon you. You are as strong as your sister, and both of you are strong in your own respective ways.

What and How to cover?

Allah the Almighty has taught us the way to covering our body. As stated in the Al-Quran:

"And tell the believing women to lower their gaze and guard their private parts from sin and not show of their adornment except only that which is apparent, and draw their head covers over their necks and bosoms and not reveal their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands' fathers, their sons, their husbands' sons, their brothers, or their brothers' sons, or their sisters' sons, or their women (i.e., their sisters in Islam), or their female slaves whom their right hands possess, or old male servants free of physical desires, or small children who have no sense of women's nakedness. And let them not stamp their feet so as to reveal what they hide of their adornment. And turn unto Allah altogether, O you Believers, in order that you may attain success” [An-Nur, 24:31]

As Muslim Women, we can wear any clothes, as long as it’s in accordance to what Allah has said in the Quran. So Sis, it’s time to unleash you creativity! You can still look gorgeous though you wear saggy dress and cover your head and bosom.

The cloth of Taqwaa

In Islam, we are not judged by gender, race, and clothes. Allah judges us by Taqwa. The best clothes are the ones which portray our modesty and not for showing off purposes. I love to share one beautiful Hadeeth, narrated by Umar Al-Khattab, from Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h

"Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated." [Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

By all means, they must compliance with the Islamic requirement and jurisprudence (Sharee’ah). As long as it is congruent with the sharee’ah perspective, there is no restriction on what kind of fashion we want to choose for ourselves.

I am flabbergasted by the modern muslim women whom have great taste in fashion, yet resolutely uphold their belief and principle with no compromise. You can get inspiration from the bohemian style (it’s my favourite), Arabian fashion, or even vintage! Those modes (and a lot more) can be compatible with the hijab. You can even create your own style. Well, apparently you know fashion far better than me right? Right (",). Anyway, some of your present clothes may suitable to be wear with the hijab so you don’t have to discard them.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.

No matter what you wear, be it stylish or just moderate, some people may consider you outdated and conservative just because you are wearing the hijab. Some people are simply oppressive. They love to be judgmental. They don’t respect the decision you made for yourself, so they don’t respect you as human being. So just screw them. Ignore what they think about you.

I understand the argument about how Islam degrading women through some issues, including the hijab issue. The biggest claim is Islam degrades women by putting such criteria to what a muslim woman should wear and that has signified to oppressing the muslim women.

But people, isn’t it an irony to rather claim that it is liberating to judge a woman by the size of her bust or length of her legs?

And what kind of liberty that endorse sexual temptation upon women, especially when it is used for commercial purposes?

You are beautiful sister (remember you were a model?). Being beautiful doesn’t mean you have to reveal your skin, or wear sexy clothes. I always believe in true beauty, which comes from our inner selves. Beauty is a kind of radiance. It is the inner beauty that brightens your eyes, sweetens your smile and unleashes your personality.

Anyhow sis, there is a possibility that people around you are afraid of your change, thus they become quite dubious. Perhaps they need time to accept the new you. Just give them as much time as they need. Meanwhile, it’s good if you could prove to them that you are just the same old Melinda, except for you are now even better than before.

Du’a (prayer)

Keep on your prayers to The Almighty Allah. He’s the best we can go to especially when we are in need of a company. He’s the best listener. Keeping close to Allah will help you achieve serenity, and by Allah will you’ll gain confidence in your decision. Also, pray to Allah that your friends will eventually accept you.

It is also important for you to get involve with other muslim woman societies, especially those whom are in the same shoes with you. Getting around with good and supportive friends helps to strengthen yourself too. Don’t worry sis, we Muslims are one family. You can connect to other sisters and share your stories or problems across the country. And I’m always here for you, will try to help you as much as I can. My prayers are always with you.

Hope my answer could help you in some ways. I wish you all the best and May Allah bless us, and guide ourselves in pacing our lives.

*photos are from muslimmatters.org

Xiet Enigma
Shah Alam
Malaysia

How to make excuses? Gile ke pe!

2011-04-20T18:30:00.001+08:00

He's good man!

An Interview with a feminist: Yvone Ridley

2011-04-17T04:11:00.005+08:00

"Islam has freed me from worry over my love life,"_Yvonne Ridley

Islam bukan hanya pada nama.

2011-04-14T14:21:00.002+08:00

Nominal muslim = muslim pada nama... Apa tu? mazhab baru ke?

Eh, tak tak. Nominal muslim ni maksudnya muslim yang hanya pada nama je. Ayat mudahnya orang islam yang tak berapa nak praktis islam laaa... Biasanya banyak berlaku kepada orang islam yang memang lahir dalam family islam. Macam orang melayu ke? Aaaa lebih kurang laaa... Tapi ada berlaku juga kepada muallaf yang mungkin tidak mempelajari islam dan tidak mempraktis islam.

OK, so ada apa dengan istilah nominal muslim tu?

Berapa hari yang lepas, Xiet berjumpa seorang sister yang baru beberapa tahun bergelar muslimah. Pada awalnya sister ni ajak jumpa sebab nak minta Xiet menjelaskan beberapa kekusutan di hatinya tentang beberapa isu kekeliruan di dalam perihal agama. Tapi biasalah, women will be women, kalau dah jumpa tu, banyak la cerita tak tersenarai dalam minit mesyuarat telah kami bualkan =)

Before pulang, sister tu ada cakap yang dia sangat bersyukur sebab dapat jumpa Xiet haritu kerana dapat berkongsi pendapat dan ilmu. Tapi sebenarnya, Xiet bersyukur sebab Xiet yang banyak belajar dari sister tu. Banyak sangat!

One of the thing yang I still remember yg sister tu cakap is, " Kebanyakan muslim tidak mensyukuri nikmat terbesar mereka - Islam. Mereka sering menganggap mereka sudah bagus, dan surely will enter paradise! Tapi mereka tak sedar yang kelalaian mereka kadangkala boleh menjatuhkan iman mereka, dan lebih parah boleh menjatuhkan aqidah mereka. Jika aqidah sudah tergelincir, apakah dia masih Islam, apakah dia masih selamat dan masih akan masuk syurga?"

"Mungkin kelalaian boleh menggugat aqidah. Tapi satu perkara yang lebih bahaya dan mampu menggugat aqidah adalah keegoan. Riak! Riak menjadi muslim, riak dengan keimanan sendiri, riak dengan apa yang Allah anugerahkan kepada mereka. Sedangkan mereka tidak merasai bagaimana rasanya jika mereka tidak mengenal Islam, bagaimana sukarnya untuk mencari kebenaran tersebut, bagaimana kuatnya usaha yang perlu dilakukan untuk jatuh cinta kepada agama tersebut... Mereka telah lahir dalam keluarga islam, maka apa yang perlu mereka riakkan sangat?"

"Dan mungkin kerena itulah orang2 yang macam kami, yang mengenal Islam atas hasil usaha sendiri, yang mendapat hidayah dari Allah ni, kami lebih mensyukuri nikmat ini dan begitu ingin mengenal dan memahami agama ini supaya kami dapat mempertahankan aqidah kami.agar kami dapat hidup dan mati di dalam agama ini" _Ayat ni Xiet tukar2 bagi skema sket la sbb mau masuk belog. Tapi contentnya sama (^_*)

Subhanallah!
Mari kita cek status iman dan amal kita, supaya kita sentiasa berada di dalam landasan yang betul di dalam menuju syurga abadi...

Moga2 kita semua sentiasa di bawah rahmat dan redha Allah.

P/S: Sis nanti balik Malaysia mau jumpa OK! jangan lupa sebenir nya yaaa! Hehe

Bolehke awak jadi sekuat & setabah Datin Seri Azizah?

2011-04-05T22:05:00.004+08:00

Pada waktu ni, kes salah laku seks yg dikaitkan dgn DSAI sering menjadi paparan utama tajuk2 akhbar, blog2 dan juga forum2 samada forum bersifat ilmiah ataupun forum jalanan. Al-maklumlah pilihanraya Sarawak dah makin dekat, banyaklah isu2 publisiti murahan mula keluar satu persatu...

Entri ni bukan nak cerita pasal tuduhan kes salah laku seks tersebut, kerana Xiet bukanlah seorang yang rajin mengikuti cerita 18SX sebegini. Lagipun saya bukanlah orang yang arif untuk membincangkan hal ini. Walau bagaimanapun, isu hangat ini ada memberi tempias kepada kehidupan kami suami isteri. Oops, kami tiada kaitan samada secara langsung ataupun tak langsung terhadap video tersebut. (Habis, celah mana tempias nya?)

Begini, dah 3 kali suami bertanya soalan yang sama kepada Xiet. "Boleh ke awak jadi sekuat & setabah Datin Seri Azizah?. Tak pernah sekalipun dia berhenti menyokong suami dia."

Pertanyaan pertama, Xiet hanya jawab "Entah la Yang," Kali kedua dia tanya Xiet dah mula rasa annoying. Kali ketiga? Mula-mula Xiet memang malas nak jawab. Tapi bila difikirkan semula pertanyaan tersebut, dan mengapa suami bertanya banyak kali (pada masa yang berlainan), mungkin bagi suami, ianya sesuatu yang penting.... Lantas Xiet pun berfikir sejenak.

Kes salah laku seks DSAI bukanlah baru kali pertama dihebahkan. Kalau difikir-fikirkan kembali, sejak DSAI keluar BN (1998), isu seks ini berasak-asak tidak putus-putus. ~~Tak faham pula kenapa sebelum DSAI keluar BN tak pula ada tuduhan2 begini? Wallahua'lam...~~

Dan sebagai seorang isteri, jika suami anda dikaitan dengan isu salah laku seks yang bukan sekali, tapi berkali-kali, apakah perasaan anda? Apakah tindakan anda?

Jangan kan kata berkali-kali, jika baru sekali suami anda dikaitkan dengan isu sebegini, apa agaknya tindakan anda? Cuba bayangkan anda dapat info mengatakan suami anda ada hubungan sulit dengan wanita lain. Cuma hubungan sulit, bukan hubungan seks secara spesifik. Agak-agak, apa perasaan dan tindakan anda terutamanya terhadap suami anda?

Mungkin kita boleh kata ini cuma lakonan politik semata-mata. Kita tak tahu di belakang kamera dan media adakah mereka masih suami isteri yang baik. Ye, mungkin juga! Tapi persoalannya, jika anda diletakkan di tempat yang sama, adakah anda sanggup berlakon sehingga sedemikian rupa? Bolehkah anda mengekalkan lakonan ini selama 13 tahun? Mampukah anda meletakkan kepercayaan dan sokongan yang TIDAK berbelah bagi terhadap suami tercinta?

Xiet seorang wanita biasa. Dan juga seorang isteri. Bagi Xiet, sekuat mana pun kita, sebagai isteri, jika tiada kecintaan dan kepercayaan yang tinggi terhadap suami sendiri, adalah amat sukar untuk sentiasa berada dibelakang suami, menyokongnya dengan sepenuh hati, jiwa dan raga, walaupun terpaksa menongkah arus, terpaksa menerima tohmahan dan cacian orang sekeliling.

Suami pernah beberapa kali berkata "Kejayaan saya, bukan kerana saya seorang. Kejayaan saya adalah kerana isteri yang saya cintai menjadi tulang belakang saya; sentiasa menyokong dan mempercayai saya. Itu adalah pengorbanan paling besar yg awak telah lakukan untuk menjadi isteri saya, dan itu jugalah pembakar semangat saya untuk terus mara ke depan. Awak lah penguat saya"

Perkara begini boleh jadi kepada sesiapa sahaja. To me, and to you. Ramai orang yang terlupa akan kehidupan akhirat dan merasakan dunia ini tiada akhirnya. Ramai yang berlumba-lumba menjadi yang pertama, sehinggakan seringkali melanggar batasan agama. Mungkin kerana dengki, iri hati, dan apa sahaja alasan jahat yang ada, kita akan diuji dengan ujian yang sama, walaupun mungkin dengan jalan cerita yang berbeza....

Persoalannya, adakah kita bersedia? Adakah kita mampu? Adakah kita kuat?

Jawapan ikhlas dari Xiet buat suami tercinta: Wallahua'lam, I don't know. I just hope that thing like this would never happen to us, and as long as you love Allah and Rasulullah, I will always love you, with all my heart & life... (love here is a verb, not a noun)

"Dan orang-orang yang beriman, lelaki dan perempuan, setengahnya menjadi penolong bagi setengahnya yang lain mereka menyuruh berbuat kebaikan, dan melarang daripada berbuat kejahatan dan mereka mendirikan sembahyang dan memberi zakat, serta taat kepada Allah dan RasulNya. Mereka itu akan diberi rahmat oleh Allah sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuasa, lagi Maha Bijaksana." At-Taubah, 71. (Ayat ni menerangkan segala-galanya)

P/S: Entri ni dah 3 hari tertunggak kerana terasa begitu sukar untuk menterjemah apa yg dirasa dan difikir dengan kata-kata... Dan entri ini juga khas buat suami tercinta.

Xiet Enigma

5 April 2011

Shah Alam

Penyambung Ukhuwwah

2011-03-24T19:35:00.005+08:00

best friends masa sekolah dulu...Alhamdulillah sampai sekarang masih xputus hubungan even dah jarang bertemu

Salam alaik,

Masa zaman sekolah dulu, adakah korang tergolong dalam kategori budak2 nerd yang pakai spec tebal2 bawak buku ke hulu ke hilir and sentiasa makan bekal yang emak buatkan?

Tergolong dalam kategori budak2 gediks yang suke usha-usha cikgu or ustaz/ustazah muda, and tak berminat nak belajar sangat, pergi sekolah untuk bergossip and mencarik publisiti murahan... Takpun suka carik gadoh dengan orang2 yang korang rasa boleh threat kefemesan korang (yang korang rasa korang femes sangat)

Jenis yang biasa2 je. Yang belajar betul2, tapi dalam masa yang sama pun enjoy jugak dengan zaman remaja korang...

Xiet? Entahlah... maybe tergolong dalam golongan pelajar pintar dan cerdas lagi cergas, di mana semua chekgu menyukai saya dan semua orang ingin berkawan dengan saya!

--Sekali ada bantal terbang ke kepala--- Tipu, tipu, tipu!

Taklah, sebenarnya Xiet ni murid biasa2 je. Tak femes sangat, tapi takla takde kawan langsung pun... Tak pandai sangat, tapi tak la bodoh sangat pun... Senang citer, BIASA-BIASA SAJE! ok!

OK, apa-apapun, rasanya setiap orang mesti ada pengalaman yang sama masa sekolah/kolej dulu;

1) Ada kawan baik

2)Ada secret admirer / or tak pun kita yang minat orang. Hehehe

3)Ada jugak orang tak suke dengan kita due tu various reasons, yang kekadang reason tu tak masuk akal pun. Maklumlah, budak sekolah.... Entah pape...

Maca mana pun, mungkin tak semua orang mahu berjumpa dengan kawan lama dulu. Mungkin ada beberapa perbuatan mereka yang mengguris hati, mungkin menyusahkan kita dulu, mengganggu konsentrasi kita masa belajar dulu....Mungkin kerana cemburu, hidup kita masa di sekolah/kolej dulu tak berapa best sangat...Dek kerana cemburu, kawan baik sendiri menjadi gunting dalam lipatan...(Tu la, sapa suruh korang pandai sangat, cantik, dan aktif ko-kurikulum. cuba contohi aku, Biasa-biasa je. Kan takde orang cemburu.Hehehe)

Ataupun

Mungkin ada di antara kita yang tercari-cari beberapa nama yang satu masa dulu setia bersama kita sepanjang masa di sekolah, berkongsi suka dan duka bersama, tetapi hilang begitu saja sebaik meninggalkan alam persekolahan/kolej...

Penyambung ukhuwwah?

Ye, alangkah baiknya kalau kita boleh melupakan apa sahaja keburukan, kejahatan dan kesusahan yang dilemparkan kepada kita suatu masa dahulu. Lantas menerima semuanya dengan redha, dan menukarkan permusuhan menjadi persaudaraan?

Alangkah indahnya jika kita mampu berjumpa dengan sahabat2 lama yang dulu bersama2 dengan kita ketika susah dan senang... Dan menyambung semula ukhuwah yang terhenti seketika...

Alangkah indahnya...

Kalau kau kuat, tentu kau lah orang yang beruntung... Kaulah orang yang bersih hatinya...

Nabi saw bersabda : Maukah kalian aku tunjukkan akhlak yang paling mulia di dunia dan diakhirat? Memberi maaf orang yang mendzalimimu, memberi orang yang menghalangimu dan menyambung silaturrahim orang yang memutuskanmu” (HR. Baihaqi)

Barangsiapa yang ingin dipanjangkan usianya dan dibanyakkan rezekinya, hendaklah ia menyambungkan tali persaudaraan” (H.R. Bukhari-Muslim).

“Maukah kalian aku tunjukkan amal yang lebih besar pahalanya daripada salat dan saum?” Sahabat menjawab, “Tentu saja!” Rasulullah pun kemudian menjelaskan, “Engkau damaikan yang bertengkar, menyambungkan persaudaraan yang terputus, mempertemukan kembali saudara-saudara yang terpisah, menjembatani berbagai kelompok dalam Islam, dan mengukuhkan ukhuwah di antara mereka, (semua itu) adalah amal saleh yang besar pahalanya. Barangsiapa yang ingin dipanjangkan usianya dan dibanyakkan rezekinya, hendaklah ia menyambungkan tali persaudaraan” (H.R. Bukhari-Muslim).

Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar... Betapa tingginya tempat orang2 yang menjaga ukhuwwah...

P/S: Dulu kan zaman kecik2 lagi, tak matang lagi... Takkan sekarang masih nak macam dulu ye tak? (0_0)

P/S/S: Ada orang pandang enteng terhadap keutuhan ukhuwwah dan kesatuan ummah... Tapi tahukah orang-orang tersebut bahawa utuhnya bangsa adalah dengan kuatnya ukhuwwah... Dan kesatuan ummah lah yang menyelamatkan ummat islam?

Petua Cikgu Bio

2011-03-18T21:58:00.001+08:00

Wahai cik adik dan kakak yang masih dara di luar sanun, nak tanya...kalau korang nk screen mamat2 sekelian untuk dibuat pasangan, part mana korang screen dulu?

Part muka ke, part perangai ke, part al-fulusnya ke....

Kalau ada mamat2 di luar sanun nak berkenalan dengan cik adik sekalian, apa kriteria yang cik adik sekalian lihat dahulu? apa soklan pertama cik adik sekalian nak tanya ekk?

Teringat masa sekolah dulu, cikgu bio pernah bagi satu petua,

'besok besar kalau ada lelaki mengorat kamu, soklan pertama kamu perlu tanya adalah you punya family ada penyakit genetik tak?'

Haha... Mesti lecturer genetik ku masa undergrad dulu bersetuju. Tak sia2 belajar genetik 3 yrs kan kan? (Yeke, dulu masa suami ngorat tak pulak ku tanya soklan mcmni? Ilmu tak amal...Haha, kau jawab kau jawab)

Actually, mengetahui salasilah family memang penting untuk mengelakkan apa2 penyakit genetik terhadap zuriat, especially penyakit yang bahaya...Ataupun sebagai langkah persediaan awal sekiranya mengetahui terdapat di kalangan ahli keluarga mempunyai penyakit keturunan. Sebab kalau dah terjadi, ia bukan mudah untuk diuruskan dan dihadapi di kemudian hari... Kau tengok Bersamamu kan? Kau pikirlah sendiri...

Tapi kena faham, tak semua penyakit tu adalah penyakit genetik atau istilah biasanya penyakit keturunan... Kena tahu jugak yang mana penyakit keturunan, yang mana penyakit akibat carik sndiri, yang mana penyakit yang memang special (mutasi), atau penyakit pandemic... Jangan pulak semua orang kau reject semata-mata ada antara family members yg berpenyakit, tak kisah penyakit apa... kang membujang pulak sampai ke tua..Uhuk uhuk...

Kalau kita tengok dalam agama Islam sendiri, tak digalakkan berkahwin sesama relatives, atau istilah genetiknya in breeding. Sebab? Sebab, kalau family kita ada penyakit keturunan, genes tu akan berlegar2 dikalangan kita dan high possibility untuk keturunan kita mengalami penyakit keturunan tersebut...Ada kaum yang pupus disebabkan mereka mengamalkan in breeding... tapi dah lupa kaum apa, dulu belajar dalam human cytogenetics...Ah, google la sendiri kalau mau tau lanjut okie?_ tp ia bukanla haram OK.

Tapi, agak2 korang la kan, sampai hati ke korang nk tanya soklan cepu emas tu kepada orang yang korang dah syok... Ye la, dibuatnya memang ada dalam keturunan dia berpenyakit keturunan, ada sanggup ke mau pisah? Kuikuikui...

Any how, jodoh ketentuan tu kan di tangan Allah. Ye tak? And macam mana jenis jodoh kita tu, bergantung jugakla kepada macam mana lifestyle dan usaha kita jugak kan... (biasanya lah)...Begitu jugak, macam mana rupa fizikal dan mental zuriat kita tu pun semuanya di tangan Allah...

And ku yakin sume orang familiar dengan hadith di bawah ni, especially bila datang masa nak mencarik jodoh...

"Wanita dinikahi karena empat faktor. Karena hartanya, nasabnya, kecantikannya, dan karena agamanya. Maka, menangkanlah wanita yang mempunyai agama, engkau akan beruntung"

Hadith dari Abu Hurairah...

Jadi apa lagi, selamat memilih pasangan yang soleh/ah dan sihat fizikal mental, supaya baka2 nya semua sihat2 belaka, insyaAllah...

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Genetik ni bukan sekadar untuk menentukan penyakit... Tapi harus diingat, setiap anak mencedok 50% daripada genes ibu dan ayah (50/50 : ibu/ayah)... So setiap inci tubuh badan yang terbentuk pada diri kita, ada kaitan ngan mak bapak kita... TAK CAYE?

Kau tengok ni betol2...

Sebelum ada anak lagi ku dah bajet mata anak kami akan mirip daddy nya. Dominan sehhh

Gambar anuar ketika 6 tahun...

Merong Mahasuasa...

2011-03-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

Fakta yang mahu dikongsi bersama...

1. Merong memang hensem... wink* wink*

2. Merong sorang je yang gemuks, mamat yang lain semuanya kurus-kurus belaka...Sebabnya?

3. Merong batak dengan makanan, dia tak bagi orang lain sentuh/curik makanan dia

4. Merong seorang yang becok. Time nak lawan2 pun masih mau membebel juga

5.Selain becok, Merong jugak seorang yang kelakar... Ada sense of humor even though annoying. Kikiki...

6. Ada part yang camera shoot bulan, mati2 ku ingat iklan... Pastu terkesima kejap... Dalam wayang mana ada iklan?

7.Cerita ni mungkin akan habis lebih awal jika Pak Kesum bukan Dato' Rahim Razali. Heh, you know what I mean? (*_^)

8. Skrip cerita ni memang boleh dipuji. Sedap je didengar. Layak menang anugerah... Walaupun aku dok baca subtitle english time yang pencerita dok bercerita (klasik, tak berapa nak paham)

9.Ada banyak mainan emosi. Ada humor, ada semangat, ada aksi, ada sedih... cuma mungkin kalau cerita ni panjang sikit, garapan emosi lebih stabil.

10. cerita ni berat la kan, HIKAYAT... Tapi boleh ditonton dengan enjoy

11. Teknik CGI nya memang banyak yang perlu diperbaiki. Tp lantak lah kan, yang penting KRU memang mantap la boleh bikin cerita macam ni... Ala, mat saleh punya cgi pun tak semesti nampak real...ada gak terkantoi sana-sini...

12. Kau kenal si Jehan Miskin? Entah berapa ribu bayaran dia dapat untuk watak tak de dialog. Kalau tak silap ada satu dua dialog je dia main...Ah, janji masuk filem international kan.

13.Ending dia macam agak tak boleh jangka lah... Merong guna puisi ibundanya untuk tamatkan ending sebegitu rupa... Apa, tak paham? ko tengok sendiri baru paham.

P/S: 1st time tengok, memang best sebab dalam wayang tu orang semua hayati cerita betul2... 2nd time tengok entah pape wayang bising lepastu part tak klakar pun gelak... Kalau mau tengok wayang, kena tau etika nonton ye, supaya tak buat orang tendang tempat duduk kau dari belakang....

P/S/S: Ye, ku tonton 2X. untuk pertama kalinya ku nonton cerita yang sama lebih 1 kali...

Xiet Enigma

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Aku rinduuuuu banget...

2011-03-10T20:46:00.002+08:00

Ada satu benda
Yang dulu2 selalu aku kerjakan, selalu aku bizikan
Yang membawa hidup aku menjadi tidak keruan
Yang membawa aku kepada ramai kawan

Ada satu perkara
Yang aku paling suka buat
Yang aku paling sayang nak tinggal
Yang aku paling sedih bila tak dapat turuti undangan

Sekarang
Bila aku teringat
Bila aku terbuat
Aku jadi rinduuuu sangat

Alangkah indahnya
Bila dapat meneruskan
Apa yang kita cinta untuk kerjakan
Bila dapat mengekalkan
Ukhuwah yang tiada bersandaran
Melainkan keikhlasan

Susah
Senang
Menangis
Ketawa
Gembira
Pahala
Dosa
Bersama-sama...

P/S: Naz & Naz - Ku mahu kau pergi lebih tinggi, lebih jauh, supaya kau menjadi lebih hebat....Aku bukan guru, aku sekadar teman yg ingin membantu...

Xiet Enigma
10 march 2011
S.Alam

Student yang duduk rumah jaga anak

2011-03-02T16:54:00.004+08:00

Salam,

Bermula Ahad 27 feb yg lepas, Onni Aaron telahpun berangkat ke Mekah untuk mengerjakan Umrah. Alhamdulillah, berkesempatan juga Onni Aaron untuk melawat rumah Allah tu.

So disebabkan itu, takde lah orang yang nak tolong menjaga Aaron selama 2 minggu ni. Mujur Xiet dpat reschedule labworks so that within this 2 weeks time taklah perlu ke lab sangat. Kalau pergi pun sekadar seminggu 1-2 kali saje. And most of the works Xiet akan buat time weekends. Meaning, weekdays adalah hari cuti Xiet and vice versa. Alhamdulillah (some of the) labmates memahami and boleh minta tolong mereka sikit2. TQ GUYS!

So apakah plan Xiet sepanjang 2 minggu ni?

Apa lagi.... Baby sit Aaron Houdd lah!

And.... konon nak writing lah sambil2 jaga Aaron tu... At least kalau tak writing pun, dapat la baca artikel2 jurnal kan. Tapi memang hakikatnya, itu memerlukan 1001 kekuatan. Bukan apa. Budak tengah membesar, dari baby nak ke toddler...Memang perhatiannya kena lebih! (ini tak termasuk distractions lain seperti internet, blogging, and kerja2 umah yg xpnah slsai.... and oh ye, tido! Naseb takde facebook. kurang 1 distraction. Hehe)

Tapi takpe lah. Dah menjadi tanggungjawab Xiet as student untuk finish study, and Ummi untuk uruskan rumah tangga... Ingat lagi Prof penah cakap suruh student dia multi-tasking... (Prof, ni kira multi tasking tak? Hehehe) --> Mohon doa kawan2 supaya Xiet diberi kekuatan untuk melunaskan semua tanggungjawab ini dengan baik, sungguh tidak mampu untuk mencapai kesempurnaan...

Anyway, Xiet busy tau dekat lab... And bila tak datang lab ni, mesti rindu pada gang di bawah ni. Sebab apa? Ahha, sebab Xiet selalu busy dengan mereka2 ni la... Nak tau apa kami buat?

Jeng jeng jeng.... PARTY! Hahaha... tapi Xiet lebih baik sikit dpd mereka ni. Sebab mereka ni lagi kaki party tau tak, tiap2 bulan ada saje party mereka buat. birthday la itu la ini la.... Xiet yg selalu tak join...Kalau sekadar tea time boleh la Xiet join... Hehehe...

Pssttt... Prof tak baca blog kan? kalau prof terjumpa blog ni, habisla kantoi semua projek kita. Hahaha...

P/S: Thanks to all of you above... The most understanding friends through out my postgraduate journey...

#1 GOOD Muslim: SAVE THE EARTH!

2011-02-26T10:23:00.002+08:00

1. DO NOT LITTER!

Think about our future generations.
This world is not yours

2. DO NOT SPITTING EVERYWHERE

Spitting spreads disease!
Have shame on yourself - don't do disgusting thing in front of others!

3. LOVE OUR WATER SOURCE

NO illegal activities or dumping materials into our water source
Imagine this, whatever junks you throw into your water source, you gonna have it in your body when you drink it...or eat the seafood. Yucks Yewww!
Don't be stupid! You don't wanna have a clean water shortage and bear the high cost for getting it...where it should actually be FREE!

4. REUSE, REDUCE, RECYCLE

The easiest way you can contribute to save the earth even at home! And you can also teach your kids to do the same: RECYCLE! Horray!!!
* recycle any junks that could be recycled (*__*)
*Start tapau your food or food that you buy from stalls using recycle container... NO PLASTIC, NO POLYSTYRENE... You know, we can lessen our environmental footprint by MINIMIZING our use of shopping plastic bags.... Let's go green!

* Organic/ safe detergent? Let's go for it! Use only appropriate amount of detergent in any of your chores. Detergent contains chemicals that can 'hurt' our earth!

WHAT ELSE TO SAVE THE EARTH? CARE ENOUGH TO SHARE?

A good muslim is a muslim who not just only cares about himself or others, but also a muslim who cares about all the ni'mat that ALLAH gives...

WE ARE KHALIFAH OF ALLAH, SO DO OUR RESPONSIBILITY....
LET BE A GOOD MUSLIM. LET'S PLAY OUR PART \(^_^)/

* photos are from google search :)

XIET ENIGMA

Manusia toxic, manusia nutritious (__)

2011-02-23T23:29:00.005+08:00

Pelik bebenor tajuk ni. Macam ubat pulak bunyiknya.

Pagi tadi on the way to UM dengar IKIM... punyelah dah lama tak dengar Ikim. HEHE...Tiba2 tergerak pulak nak pasang radio tu (padahal semua lagu kat stesen lain tak best time tuh)...

Pastu dengar pulak satu ceramah daripada sorang Dr. ni. Tapi tak ingat pulak namanya... Lepas tu termelekat pulak nak dengar ceramah tu sampai habis...

Apa yang sempat Xiet dengar adalah, lebih kurang maksudnya, jangan lah kita menjadi manusia toksik. Membuatkan orang tak selesa dengan kita kerana niat dan perilaku kita yang tidak baik kepada orang lain. Membuatkan orang rasa menyampah dengan kita kerana sikap kita sendiri... [tambah sendiri: buat orang sakit hati dengan kita, macam toksid la, buat orang sakit ye tak]

gambar ihsan : cikguisza

Jadilah manusia nutritious. Macam supplement, memberi kebaikan kepada orang lain. Membuatkan orang yang bersama kita berasa selesa dan gembira berada di sisi kita. Jadilah insan yang ikhlas melakukan apa jua pekerjaan, tanpa mengharap balasan walaupun sekadar pujian...

gambo ihsan: Q fashion

Mentang2 penceramah tu Doktor, analogi yg dia guna pun dah macam nak bagi prescription kat patient dah. Tapi takpe, I like. Hehe...

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P/S: Jangan main politik kotor. Tak sihat untuk kehidupan sendiri dan orang lain. Kalau nak kerja, kerja betul2, jangan bodek2 dan kipas2 boss... Kalau jadi boss, jadilah boss yang baik, yang melihat staff2 nya berdasarkan kualiti kerja, tanpa bias kepada perkara2 personal...Kalau nak belajar, belajar betul2, fokus. jangan carik musuh, jangan carik pasal... Di mana saja kita berada, biarlah kita mengumpul kawan, bukan lawan...

Tapi nak berkawan biarlah betul caranya... tak perlu make up stories untuk nampak kita hebat. tak perlu memburuk2kan / kenakan orang lain supaya kita lebih daripada orang lain... kita ingat bila kita nampak hebat orang akan suka? TAK... Orang akan suka kalau kita ikhlas. Ikhlas menjadi diri sendiri, ikhlas menjadi seorang sahabat....

Jadi kawan biarlah yang tahu menegur kesilapan kawan dihadapannya, bukan mencari salah dibelakangnya...

Tak baik sabotaj orang.... hidup ini macam roda OK... satu masa kau kat atas, tapi karang2 kau jatuh bawah, macam mana kau? - Xiet tak berani, sebab takut kalau jatuh tersungkur nanti terpaksa menjilat semula apa yg dah diludah ke tanah.... =)

Kepada kawan2: Jom jadi manusia nutritious! katakan taknak kepada manusia toksid! busuk!!!!

My hijab my style!

2011-02-16T18:15:00.004+08:00

Salam,

Sebernanya nak tulis pasal banyak benda...tapi semuanya macam berlegar2 je kat kepala.... Tup tup, yang ni pulak yg Xiet tulis....(*__*)

Masa kecik2 dulu, Xiet free hair... Masa tu memang ada je kesedaran... Tp masa tu memang tak de dalam family yg pakai tudung... Even though masa tu masih sekolah rendah, tapi kat kampung Xiet masa tu budak2 kecik pun macam dah pakai tudung dah. Malu jugak kalau terserempak dengan kawan2 sekolah kat kedai ke mana2 sebab Xiet free hair. (Sebab pi sekolah pakai tudung)

Penghijrahan Xiet bermula masa form 1, pertengahan tahun... Dapat pulak sekolah agama, Haaaa... Memang kena pakai tudung la... Tudung labuh lak tu! And Alhamdulillah both of my Moms pun berhijrah sama....

Sampailah sekarang, even tudung Xiet dah tak selabuh dulu (Hehe), tapi Xiet masih lagi istiqamah menutup aurat...

Dah sekarang, kawen pulak dengan orang Akedemi Pengajian Islam, and pulak tu Head of Shariah in one of a very well known Islamic Bank dekat Malaysia ni... So, paham2 la kan. Hehehe..

Dulu, pengertian Xiet di dalam menutup aurat dan berfesyen adalah berbeza dengan sekarang.... Jadi, dulu, pemilihan warna, corak, penggayaan tudung, semuanya memang ada beza lah dengan sekarang...

Tapi ada satu perkara yg tak berubah: Xiet masih menggemari style2 yang unik...

Xiet masih ingat masa zaman sekolah dulu, ada 4-5 helai tudung yang Xiet custom-made, design and jahit sendiri... And pakai pun ikut style yang tersendiri...Dulu, tudung tak pelik2 mcm skarang ni....

Begitu juga dengan baju, ada berkoleksi baju jubah, Maxi, blouse dan lain-lain yang Xiet design sendiri, tempah kat makcik suruh jahit dan pakai sendiri (Pastu syok cun sendiri la kan. Hehe)

Sekarang, Alhamdulillah, hubby pulak even dia berkelulusan shariah (boleh panggil ustaz la jugak. Hehe) tapi dia suka kalau wife dia stylo mylo dan tak stereotype... 1 je syaratnya: Shariah Compliance...

Cuma skarang dah takde kerajinan nak design and buat sendiri baju and shawl/hijab. Alhamdulillah, fesyen pun dah macam2 tinggal pilih and bayar je :)

Masalahnya, sekarang susahnya nak mencari tudung yang menepati citarasa diri di samping menepati kehendak syarak... Labuh, tapi nipis... pendek & nipis tu memang berlambak2.Labuh and tak nipis ada, tp mcm makcik2 style (Xiet dah makcik ke blum eh?)...

Xiet paling suka shawl... Selendang yang digayakan dengan pelbagai rupa! Tapi sayangnya banyak constrain, especially penggayaan yang memang cantik, tapi ada pula part2 yg kurang shariah compliance....Most of selendang yg ada di pasaran memang kurang labuh.

Sejak dua menjak ni, terasa macam nakkkk sangat kembali kepada hobi lama... design & jahit shawl sendiri.... lebih2 lagi bila lepas borak ngn Ijah (Ijah ni labmate Xiet. Dia baik. Single lagi... Hehe... Promo pulak...)

Tapi kekangan masa dan kemalasan jiwa raga sekarang, menyebabkan Xiet jadi macam nak tulis je entri ni pas tu post, pastu dah...nokhtah di sini saja.

Hehe...

P/S: Mana lah tau lepas ni Xiet tuka bidang plak. Tup2 masuk International Islamic Fashion ke... (Berangan memang rajin, yang lain malas ya ampun. Hehe)

FYI: Xiet adalah seorang left-handed yang tak reti menjahit... and kerja2 kraft yang biasanya org pompuan pandai.... Sebab apa Xiet buat tudung/baju sekolah/baju raya sendiri and pakai sendiri jek? Sebab kalau orang tengok jahitannya, ya ampun, pasti kena hina. So sendiri pakai takpe... Hehehe....

Siapa yg kau chenta?

2011-02-14T22:02:00.004+08:00

Sapa yg kau chenta?

Prophet Muhammad P.B.U.H or St. Valentino?

Mana yg kau lebih ingat?

14/feb or Maulidur Rasul?

Ku tahu, semua pembaca blog ni lebih chenta Prophet Muhammad. Yakin 100%!

Mestilah yakin, sebab pembaca blog ni bukannya ramai pun. Kawan2 ku semuanya... And kawan2 ku semua pencinta tegar Prophet Muhammad (^__^)

Tak mainla valentine2 ni....

Kami cinta orang2 yang kami cintai hari2....!

P/s: Cinta perlu pembuktian, bukan omongan ksosong. Mari buktikan kecintaan kita kepada Prophet Muhammad.... Mari ikuti Sunnah nya....

Aku membosankan?

2011-02-09T17:37:00.003+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum kawan-kawan semua. Ni hao?

Tengah dok melangot depan HPLC dan result yang amatlah tak membanggakan ni, tiba-tiba teringat kat satu perkara....

Korang kalau borak dengan kawan, topik apakah yang sering sekali menjadi pilihan korang? Maksudnya, korang suke cerita pasal apa/siapa?

Xiet notice satu benda dalam diri Xiet... Xiet rupanya suke bercerita tentang.... Herm.... orang-orang yg dekat dalam hidup Xiet...

Sikit-sikit "Anak akak blah,blah,blah" takpun "suami akak blah,blah,blah" takpun, "Adik saye,blah bla bla"... Atau "ayah kite kan, bla bla bla"....

Topik menjadi pilihan Xiet mesti pasal suami dan anak...

Senang cite, Anak & suami tu kira bahan umpatan Xiet sehari-harian laaaa. Hehe...kesian mereka berdua...

Tapi yang lebih kesian adalah orang yang mendengar la. Agak2 bernanah tak ekk telinga dorang. Agak2 dalam hati dorang merasa buhsan tak ekk bila tiap kali Xiet bercerita...

Kepada yang berkenaan,

Sorry la ekk kalau korang bosan atau menyampah dengan cerita Xiet yang banyak berkisarkan anak dan family... Syok sendiri pulak Xiet ni kan... Hehe...

Pssttt... Korang pulak macam mana? Sedar tak siapa yg selalu menjadi sasaran korang untuk menjadi bahan umpatan? Opsss...umpatan yang positif la kalau boleh. Hehehe...

P/S: Kata orang, kalau kita selalu asyik bercerita pasal seseorang tu, maknanya kita sayanggggg dekat dia...(refer pada cerita yg baik2 shj OK). Sebabtu, kita selalu ingat pada dia dan kita rasa seronok dia ada dalam hidup kita, sebabtu kita nak share dengan orang lain tentang keseronokan kita.... Itu kata orang la...

Wallahua'lam....

Xiet Enigma

Azam...

2011-02-04T21:04:00.007+08:00

Salam 'Alaikum...

Sempena besdey Xiet yg ke 27 yg lalu, Xiet ada buat resolusi atau plan untuk tahun ni...Kira macam azam lah tue kot. Sejak tinggalkan sekolah menengah dulu, Xiet tak pernah berminat dengan en. azam berazam ni.... Maybe sebab Xiet rasa benda mcmni tak lut kat kehidupan Xiet kot... Tapi entah kenapa, tahun ke 27 hidup ni, terasa penting pulak buat setting and goal at least utk tahun ni.... Sebab? Haaaaa... Sebab bila ada goal, ada target, bila ada target, adalah usaha. InsyaAllah!

And benda ni buatpe nak kecoh2 kat blog? tulis dalam buku 3 5 and simpan dalam handbag udah le. takpun ingat dalam otak je... Kan azam tu macam untuk personal kan kan?

Sebenarnya saja tulis kat sini supaya bila Xiet bukak balik, Xiet boleh la ingat....lagipun tak la hilang catatan2 ni... Hehe... Paling penting, kalau ada sahabat2 yg bace entri ni, and mengenali Xiet, kalau nampak macam Xiet dah menyimpang ke apa, bole la jadi cik penunjuk jalan pulang...bole tolong betulkan and tego2 kan Xiet... Ye tak? So apakah resolusi nye wahai Puan Xiet?

Sebagai hamba Allah

* NO solat dinosaur ke, gajah ke.... solat mestilah di awal waktu selagi bloleh!

* Banyakkan lah bangun malam bukan sekadar tukat pampers Aaron, tapi berjumpa Allah. And berjemaah bersama suami sekiranya suami ada di rumah...

* Banyakkan zikrullah dengan mengaji dan berzikir hendaknya....

Sebagai anak dan kakak

* Anak yang solehah and try untuk tolong parents terdaya mungkin

* Jadi kakak yg baik, memberi contoh kepada adik2...tapi maintain rock OK!

Sebagai wife

* Isteri yang lebih rajin... too general yet holistic. Aiyoo....

* Isteri yang baik hati... And lebih understanding, kurang membebel... Susah ni nak buat.. Hehe

Sebagai Ummi

* Didik Aaron jadi anak yg soleh

* Sentiasa rajin menguruskan segala hal untuk Aaron, demi kebaikannya. EVERYTHING for Aaron... Super Mama!

Sebagai Student

* Start Writing Thesis pleaseeee!

* Finish labwork paling lewat end of this year a.k.a Disember. C'mmon Xiet, u can do it!

As an individual

*Tidur awal! Takmo tidur lambat2 lagi... And bangun pun awal! Ni pun amat susah untuk dilaksanakan... WaaaaaWaaaa

* Rajin-rajin lah membaca.... Otak dah naik berkarat dah nih!

* OK Xiet, this year, kick your butt off your seat.... Pergi lah bersenam ye! Sudah pancit stamina mu. Aaron lari lagi laju.... Haiyyaaaaa....

* Persetan kan orang2 yang sengal dalam hidup. jangan layan benda2 remeh. Supaya otak terisi dengan perkara2 bermanfaat, mulut menutur perkataan2 yang baik, mata melihat yang indah2 dan hati pun jadi bersih! Chaiyokkkkk!

Semoga Xiet menjadi orang yang lebih baik. Supaya menjadi isteri yang sentiasa cool di mata suami (suami panggil saya Qurratu 'Ain. so kena make sure bukan sekadar panggilan semata2 la ek).... dan semoga Xiet menjadi seorang wanita yang sentiasa dihormati n dicintai Aaron Houdd, supaya bila besar nanti, orang tanya dia siapa yang paling dia sayang, dia jawab Ummi, siapa yg paling cantik, dia jawab Ummi, siapa yang paling dia hormat, dia jawab Ummi, and kalau nak cari wife esok nak carik yang macam mana, dia akan jawab mcm Ummi....

Xiet Enigma

5 feb 2011

17 January @ 27 YO

2011-02-01T20:40:00.006+08:00

Alhamdulillah, Allah masih lagi memberi peluang untuk Xiet melata di bumi ciptaanNya, menghirup udaraNya, menikmati rezeki kurniaanNya, dan paling penting, masih ada peluang untuk Xiet memperbaiki diri menjadi insan yang lebih baik, sebelum bertemu denganNya...

Tanggal 17 January yang lepas, genaplah usia Xiet 27 tahun hidup di bumi ciptaan Allah nie... Apa? 27? Macam tak percayaaaaaaa! Seriyessss.....

Kalau nak ukur dari aspek kejayaan, dalam usia 27 tahun ni, tiada apa yg Xiet dapat banggakan dengan pencapaian Xiet. Tak kaya, tak de bisness yang memberangsangkan, tak abis2 belajar lagi, takde aset lagi, serba serbi takde la... Pernah (byk kali) jugak Xiet mengenang nasib, and mengukur kejayaan material dengan orang lain.... biasanya, kesudahannya adalah rasa sedih sebab dalam usia macam gini, masih belum kecapi satu kejayaan yang boleh membanggakan diri sendiri dan ibu ayah!

Apa yang Xiet ada cumalah seorang suami yang sangat mencintai Xiet seadanya, seorang anak yang telah Allah amanahkan untuk Xiet didik menjadi seorang muslim yang soleh, dan 2 buah family yang sentiasa gila dengan turun naik masalah kehidupan, tetapi penuh dengan kasih sayang.... Apa yang Xiet ada ni, tak boleh diukur dengan jutaan wang ringgit dan timbunan harta dunia. Sebab mereka inilah orang-orang yang paling penting di dalam hidup Xiet, yang tak pernah berputus asa dengan sikap dan perangai Xiet, juga sentiasa berada di sisi Xiet di kala Xiet susah atau senang! Cuma ini sahajalah harta yang Xiet ada di dunia ini; Sebuah CINTA yang tiada tandingannya!

17 January yang lepas, cuma hari biasa yg berlalu begitu shj... Thnx to sahabat2 n family members yg wish. Masatu Xiet demam teruk jugak. dah masuk 3 minggu demam on/off. cane nih? Hubby pn tak cuti time tuh. malah balik lewat malam...it was just an ordinary day with a typical routine.

Tapi 28 Jan yg lepas satu family celeb besday Xiet. Lambat celeb sebab tunggu adik Xiet yg kat KISAS balik dari asrama. And time tuh hubby bg besdey present. Hehehe...

And pada 2 & 3 feb baru lepas ni, Hubby buat seprise! bercuti di Golden Palm Tree, Sepang Gold coast. Hati pun apa lagi, berbunga-bunga lah tidak keruan. Hehehe... Tempat tu memang best, sama macam Legend Water Chalet yg kami kunjungi last year. Sesuai untuk honeymoon, family vacation, atau untuk release tension jugak untuk writing thesis. Hehe (for more info about the resort, please click here)

Apapun, Xiet harap tahun ni dan tahun2 akan datang akan memberi semangat baru buat Xiet, di dalam menjalani hidup ini... Aminnn...

P/S: Next entry, sambungan bagi entri ini. Heh heh...

YOU aren't perfect, so don't expect to get a perfect spouse

2011-01-25T12:26:00.009+08:00

Salam...

I am suppose to write about my birthday wishes, resolution of the year and all since I had passed my birthday last week. But since everything is postponed, so I guess the article about those things can wait as well...

Huh, tajuk post kali ni is a bit sharp and annoying kan? Well, I was just finished chatting with someone, asking me to find a partner for her. And for the record, this has been the 4th time people asking me to be their match maker.... Hahahaha.... (Aku ni terer sangat ke? Kalau terer takla aku sambung master buat bio. Better buka agensi. Haha).. Honestly, I am not suitable for this job. Simply becoz I don't usually mind people personal life, and I dont have any candidate for them... But Iman knows who's the best person yang suke kerja2 mengmatch making orang ni... Right Iman? Hahahah

All I can say is, sometimes (or all the time), we have certain criteria of who's gonna be our partner/spouse. And most people put a very high standard and/but stiff justification upon their Mr./Ms right. It's good to aim high. But first thing we must consider is our own selves. We want a Mr/Ms perfect, but are we perfect enough? are we good enough?

Being good is not just about finding a good person for us. Meaning, it shouldn't be "we have to be good SO THAT we can get a good spouse". Indeed, We HAVE to be good and InsyaAllah we could get a good spouse...Some ppl that i know, they are so good, but Allah test them with a bad spouse... -->Berdoalah supaya dapat spouse yang baik ekk. Hehehe...

Some ppl wanna look good so that they can catch ppl's attention (especially the one that they love). They try to kuruskan badan, buat laser treatment kat muka, tukar imej mengikut yg org suka,etc. But Why? If he/she recognize you than it's good huh? End of story huh? So, ppl aaccept you becoz you are lawa in his/her eyes. Many people who aren't in the list of beautiful person got a wonderful spouse and a blissful marriage ---> Cinta sejati tak memandang paras rupa...

My sister once said that she was frustrated becoz her ex- is now more charming and bergaya lepas clash with her. Macam a bit menyesal la. I asked her directly, 'OK, his personality has changed... But perangai ubah tak?' Than she said 'donno, rasa mcm biasa je mcm dulu gak'... See, again ppl always look at the physical appearance as 1st reference. Since I know her ex- and I know my sis very well, so I spoke directly in front of her face 'Kalau muka je dah cantek, tapi perangai still jaha**m buat pe? blah blah blah' (takmo citer semua nnt korang bohsan dgr saya membebel. Hehehe)

I didn't say that physical appearance is not important. It IS important. But is should come together with inner side. Behavior. Janganla selekeh je. Dalam Islam sendiri Allah suke kecantikan. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder right? Cantikkan diri dengan fizikal yang cantik dan juga perangai yang menarik.... (Faham tu Xiet, jangan pandai tulis je. Hehehe)

Perhaps, in your life, there's someone yang almost perfect came to u. Maybe he/she has almost everything: Good looking, rich, brilliant, bright career and future, kind, generous, etc.... But still, you reject that person and takmo dia jadi your spouse. Why? maybe becoz of just 1 weakness yang ada dalam diri dia, but unfortunately, that 1 weakness is so important until ia menutup kelebihan2 lain yang ada pd diri org tersebut....Or maybe becoz of no reason at all but you just dont think and feel that he/she is the right person for you...

But later in your life, you may find other person yang not as perfect as the previous one. But you accept that person becoz he has no weakness that you couldnt take. And you are happy with that person even though he/she is not as perfect as the previous one.

Sometimes when bad things happen between you and your spouse, you might mengenang2 and membanding beza, and with syaitan's help, you might starting to ask "Why lah I dont accept the previous person?" And suddenly, you forgot about that 1 weakness yang buat you reject that person in the very 1st place....

If this thing has ever happen to you, remember that even though your spouse isn't as perfect as every other ppl that you know in the entire world, but he's the one that you chose to be your life partner, and he has done so many things to make you happy.... Yes he's not perfect, but so are you... You and your spouse complement each other....

And tak semestinya orang yang dilihat sempurna itu mampu memberi kebahagiaan yang kita impikan.

Menerima seseorang itu adalah apabila kita mampu menerima kelemahan2 nya. Bukan kerana segala kelebihan yang dia ada....

Pssstttt.... I'm 27. And I'm married.....sealed & case closed =)

-XOXO-

Semua orang dah ada pesbuk!

2010-12-18T10:47:00.003+08:00

Pesbuk my ibu...

OK OK. short post di pagi hari (pagi ke, dah nak tengah hari dah ha!)

Apsal semua orang ada fesbook kecuali diri ku?

Adik-adik ku, kazens yang bawah umur pun ada gak... Ni bukan setakat bawah 18 tahun je, bawah lagiiii lah, membaca pun masih mengeja2 sikit2, tapi ada pesbuk gak tu... Nia tu, tadika pun pesbuk dah hebat... Hehehe

Ayah pun ada fesbuk tuh, I.Geza pun ada fesbuk.... Terbaru, my MOM yang kami selalu ejek tak tau pakai HP, sekali ada fesbuk wooooo...

Pagi2 dah call dari opis tanya I.D fesbuk ku...

And sekali kitorang adik beradik cek fesbuk dia, ingat dia tak tau la buat pape. Sekali, pandai tulis wall, pandai like2 lagi you, pandai serba serbi lah...

Tercabar nih....

p/s: Baik cek, nenek ku ada fesbuk tak ekk? =p

Jauh perjalanan, luas pengalaman

2010-12-14T13:35:00.010+08:00

Kyoto city, pandangan daripada Kyoto Tower

Alhamdulillah. Segala urusan di Jepun telah pun selesai. Kini sudah 3 hari di tanah air tercinta. Rindu pada Aaron Houdd masih belum terubat sepenuhnya, lantas beberapa hari ni akan ku curahkan segala perhatian khas untuk Aaron Houdd =p

Ini adalah post pertama untuk perkongsian cerita dan pengalaman di Jepun. Post pertama di blog ini, tapi sudah beberapa post di blog yang satu lagi. Sebab yang tu semua ada kaitan dengan Aaron (Aaron lagi... Hehehe)

Banyak yang telah dipelajari bermulalah daripada persiapan, perjalanan, penginapan di sana, sampailah pulang semula ke tanah air. Betul lah kata orang 'Jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan'. Tapi semua tu bergantung juga kepada individu. Kalau dah jauh berjalan pun tapi tak mahu mengambil iktibar dan tak mahu belajar, maka tidaklah seluas mana pengalaman.

Mengimbas kembali detik2 persiapan untuk ke sana, banyak benar ujian dan dugaan telah dihadapi. Dengan masalah scholar, dengan takde dana, dan lain-lain masalah kewangan yang muncul. Tiap-tiap malam tak boleh tidur dok pikir macam mana nak carik duit. Sebab tu bila dah sampai sana, Xiet berhati-hati sungguh untuk berbelanja. Itu belum masuk bab labwork, bab family, bab Aaron Houdd yang perlu ditinggalkan dan stock susu yang berkurangan.... Banyak masalah sebenarnya tapi sepanjang persiapan ke sana, Xiet cuba juga untuk selesaikan dengan baik dan berusaha melakukan semuanya sendiri... Banyak kali juga rasa nak give up, tapi try jugak kuatkan hati supaya meneruskan misi...

Bab penginapan pun satu hal juga. Ada jugakla usha-usha kawan2 untuk mohon pertolongan mana tau dapat link dengan sahabat2 di Kyoto yang boleh tolong bab penginapan. At least dapat kurangkan bebanan kos. Dalam banyak2, akhirnya dapat lah respon positif daripada seorang yang tak pernah dikenali langsung selama ni, tapi sudi nak bagi tumpang menginap di rumahnya.

Sepanjang di sana, Xiet berpindah sebanyak 3 kali. Rumah pertama adalah rumah seorang anak dara ni. Nesh namanya. Baru berkenalan dan berjumpa ketika di Kyoto lah. Tapi seronok berkenalan dengan dia. Rasa macam dah lama kenal sebab dia sporting habis. Rumah kedua rumah Abang Kimi dan family. Ini lagi lah, tak pernah kenal and even tak pernah jumpa sebab ketika kami bermalam di rumahnya, tuan rumah pulang ke Malaysia. Memang selamber je abang tu bagi izin menumpang. Ke tiga, kami tinggal di guest house. Best jugak sebab bersih tempat tu. Alhamdulillahhhhh.... Semoga Allah permudah urusan mereka-mereka ini.

Xiet, tak sejuk ke?

Nesh yang paling hujung,tudung hitam...=p

Bila dah berada di Kyoto, lagi banyak pelajaran dan pengalaman baru. Bak kata hubby di facebook nya 'Ku lihat Islam sangat subur di bumi Japan di sana sini... Namun tak ku temui Muslimnya... Ku temui ramai Muslim di sana sini di bumi Malaysia, namun kurang ku rasai sifat Islamnya... Oh Japan, sungguh bumi bertuah ini lebih Islam dari Malaysia'

Hari terakhir conference, and hari pertama hubby sampai.

Di sini, kita yang jauh sebagai musafir, akan terasa pentingnya ukhuwah. Sejujurnya, saat-saat sukar sepanjang di tempat orang, banyak tangan yang menghulur bantuan terdiri daripada orang yang tidak pernah langsung dikenali selama ini. Sedangkan orang yang dikenali pula, belum tentu mengambil pusing hal orang lain. Maklum sajalah manusia, sering saja ingin melepaskan diri daripada kesusahan, walaupun kadangkala terpaksa meletakkan orang lain di dalam kepayahan dan serba salah... Ada beberapa orang yang membantu mengatakan bahawa mereka pernah menjadi musafir dan hidup susah. Maka kerana itulah mereka mengerti dan ringan memberi bantuan. Satu perkara yang Xiet belajar, jangan malu untuk bertanya! Yer, walaupun tak paham bahasa Jepun, Xiet akan main redah aje bertanya dan berbahasa isyarat untuk bertanya. Kalau takut and malu, sampai ke sudah sesat tak jumpa jalan pulang. Hehehe

Kak Mas and Abg Hariz. Antara kenalan baru di sana...

Di Jepun, semuanya mahal - mahal belaka. Maklum sajalah currency Malaysia rendah nilainya. Jadi kami semuanya membawa bekal dari Malaysia buat mengurangkan kos perbelanjaan harian. Sharing is caring kan. Hehe. Ye, itulah konsep yang diamalkan. Di sana, Xiet banyak ikat perut aje. Sebelum ke Jepun, punyalah susah nak carik duit. Sendiri usaha itu ini untuk dapatkan duit. Alhamdulillah family bukan jenis yang pandai meminta-minta. At least, not from my flesh and blood. Yang ada cume one of my sis, just minta Xiet ambil gambar banyak2 aje. Pendidikan dari kecil, jangan memandai-mandai meminta-minta. Kita tak tahu samada seseorang itu mampu atau tidak. Jangan kerana kita meminta, menyusahkan orang lain.

Biasa dengar bukan, akan ada yang mengirim itu ini kerana sesetengah barang di negara lain lebih murah. Herm, pada Xiet, murah manakah barang tersebut? Seperti di Jepun ni, memang ada yang murah, tapi sama saja kualiti nya di Malaysia. Padahal di Malaysia juga boleh dapat dengan harga yang lebih murah. Cuma mungkin tiada yang mahu memandang dek kerana buatan Malaysia. Lagipun, tak kan semua benda murah mahu di beli. Iye tak?

Apapun, buah tangan tetap ada. Cuma mengikut kemampuan sajalah adanye. Hehe...

Benar kata orang, manusia kalau sudah terdesak, akan terkeluarlah perangai sebenarnya. Ada juga beberapa kes di sini di mana kami berhadapan dengan ragam manusia yang ego, sombong dan selfish sekali. Mujur kami mampu bertahan. Tak mengapa lah, yang penting kami enjoy sepanjang di sana...Bagaimana cara kami enjoy? Hehehe... enjoy aje, nak happy atau tidak happy, semuanya kita yang tentu kan. semua nya bergantung kepada mind setting. Betul tak? Jalan kaki jauh2 malam2 sesat2 pun happy, balik rumah malam2 sorang2 pun happy, tuang maggie tiap2 malam pun happy jugak. Semua happy! Hehehe... pengalaman semua tu! Iyelah, kalau nak tau diri tu kuat mana, berani mana, dan bagus mana, kena lah ada cabaran, baru lah boleh buat penilaian dan penambah baikan... cewah, cakap macam poyo. Padahal masa jalan balik sorang2 and sesat tu, takut la jugak kan.Hahaa

Dah macam beraya di perantauan la pulak. Hehehe

Ada banyak perkara negatif tentang Jepun dan rakyat nya. Namun, banyak juga yang positif, yang boleh dijadikan iktibar dan pedoman. Jadi, buanglah yang keruh dan ambil lah yang jernih!

Berusaha untuk menjadi insan yang lebih pemaaf 'Forgive & Forget'... Alangkah sukarnya... Hai Xiet, Rasulullah paling banyak memikirkan hal orang lain, dan paling sedikit memikirkan tentang dirinya sendiri. Jadi jangalah kau kikis sikap itu dalam dirimu, dan sepatutnya kau tebalkan lah lagi sikap itu. Jadilah Insan yang memberi manfaat kepada Ummah!

Xiet harap, segala pengalaman yang berharga di sana dapat dijadikan titik permulaan perubahan untuk menjadi manusia yang lebih baik lagi. Lebih matang di dalam membuat keputusan, lebih berani dan pandai menjaga diri, dan lebih prihatin terhadap orang lain. Tidak sombong; ketika senang, lihat pada yang di dalam kesusahan, dan ketika susah, tidak sombong untuk meminta bantuan dengan cara yang sopan dan tidak annoying. Semoga Xiet belajar dari pengalaman...Aminnnn....

Xiet Enigma

14 & 15 Dec 2010

Shah Alam

MODE: mengimbau kenangan silam

2010-11-30T01:00:00.005+08:00

gang beg ija...

Sebenarnya dah berminggu-minggu nak tulis pasal ni. Tak tau la kenapa sejak dua menjak ni selalu je teringat pasal kisah zaman muda-muda dulu. Iman, K.shikin, boleh tolong jawab tak?

Begini al-kisahnya:-

Pada zaman dahulu...(Pretttt...boring!)

Bila masuk UM ni, banyak benda Xiet belajar. Belajar berdikari, belajar macam mana nak survive, belajar kenal manusia, macam-macam la. Pendek kata, kalau nak dimetaforakan dengan warna, sepanjang Xiet berada di UM, dah ada berbagai-bagai warna mencorak dan menconteng kertas kehidupan Xiet. Dalam banyak2, hari ni Xiet nak cerita tentang ukhuwah! (Jiwang sket la beb!)

First year di UM, Xiet diberikan kesempatan untuk berkenalan dengan seorang kakak senior kos A.I (Akedemi Islam). Kak Jiha nama glamour nye. Kakak ni tinggal opposite dengan bilik kami. Not really opposite la, selang beberapa pintu. Apa yang best tentang kakak ni, dia selalu jadi 'juru kejut subuh kami'. Caranya mudah aje, bila dia nak keluar pergi toilet ambil wudhu', dia akan cek selipar kami, kalau kering, sah kami belum bangun, so dia akan ketuk pintu sammmmpai kami bangun! Satu lagi yang tak dapat lupa, kami saling kenal-mengenali baju (boleh kenal baju sapa even tengah rendam dalam baldi), kegemaran, dan juga tabiat. Hatta sampai ke tahap derap kaki pun boleh kenal! Ingat lagi kalau dalam bilik air, kalau Kak Jiha masuk, mesti cam! begitu juga sebaliknya! Rindu nya pada Kak Jiha. Dapat jumpa sekejap aje sebab lepas tu dia dah habis belajar!

Second year, kehidupan makin liar! (chett, ayat ganas kunun!). Masa ni dah ada motor egoooo. (Tapi lesen motor tak penah ada!). And masih roommate dengan Iman yang weng weng sikit tu. Hehehe... Masa ni Xiet dengan Iman share banyakkkk benda. Iman kumpul duit beli Desktop and Xiet ada motor. Most of the time, Xiet yang guna desktop iman and iman yang bawak motor Xiet. Sampai ramai orang ingat itu motor iman...Seingat Xiet lah, sejak First year sampai second year, tiap kali tapau makanan, kami hanya akan tapau 1 tupperwre utk 2 orang, and makan share guna 1 pinggan/tupperware... First year mungkin tak kerap sangat, tapi second year memang tabiat kami macam tu setiap kali tapau....Tu kot buat ukhuwah erat. Wallahua'lam...

suatu malam di kala ramadhan...

Banyak sangat kisah masa 2nd year. Masa tu, hidup busy tak hengat! Busy macam nak mengalahkan PM la kononnye. Meeting sampai larut malam, study sampai tak tido, macam2 lagi la.... Tapi paling best sekali time ni dah start join IIS. Every Wednesday & alternate Thursday akan merempit pergi IIS... Banyak kali gakla study atas motor. Dinner atas motor pun pernah... Time ni Xiet, Iman, Wafa and K.Shikin dah mula ehem...ehem....dengan pokecik. time ni jugak la kenal ferrari merah Anuar Sajari (",)

Ingat lagi insiden satu malam di mana kami pergi sambutan merdeka di UM. Malam tu banyak sangat program sampai kepenatan, tapi kelaparan. So Xiet pun sempat la juga menjamah makanan sebelum tidur. Nak dijadikan cerita, Xiet makan terus tertidur tak sempat nak cuci tangan. Memang tertidur di atas lantai depan makanan. Pagi2 bangun K.Wani (another roommate) terkejut and gelabah ingat Xiet pengsan sebab keracunan makanan! Haduh, apalah kan? tak senonoh. Hehehe...

Satu lagi insiden adalah di mana pada suatu petang, Iman kelaparan giler (tak tau dia tu kurus tapi asyik lapar). Iman pun pergi kedai mana ntah kat fak dia. Duit masa tu cukup2 beli 3 chicken floss bun. Dengan happy nya Iman membeli 3 chicken floss bun dan berjalan dengan riang untuk makan di bilik bersama Xiet dan K.Wany. Di tengah perjalanan, sekumpulan monyet datang menyerang Iman dan mencurik Chicken floss kesemuanya! Akibatnya Iman pulang dengan tangan kosong dan deraian air mata. Time tu sumpah Xiet kesian kat dia and terharu la gakkk, tapi dalam masa yang sama rasa kelakar tapi tak berani gelak so gelak dalam hati je. Hihihi....

3rd year, terpisah dengan Iman sebab terpaksa tukar bilik atas alasan tertentu (Actually bile pk balik, ntah pape alasan tu...Opsss...wala' beb, wala'). Tapi ukhuwah masih ngam macam dulu, cuma tak selalu jumpa dah. Masa 3rd year ni Xiet boleh cakap zaman kegelapan Xiet la. Hanya orang2 tertentu yang tahu. Time ni K.shikin sangat banyak membantu. Kami share terlalu banyak benda. Anuar Sajari pun salah seorang sahabat yang tak pernah jemu memberi sokongan dan dorongan. Rasanya kalau takde dorang ni, macam manalah agaknye Xiet meneruskan hidup dengan tabah!

program kolej...

K.shikin masa tu dah tak duduk kolej, tapi selalu jugak squatting bilik Xiet. Roomate Xiet King & K.Muni sporting gilak so senang kaw tim laaa... K.Shikin ni la yang hantar and ambik Xiet tiap pagi and petang setiap hari sepanjang Xiet Latihan Industri. K.shikin akan keluar lepas subuh untuk ke lab and dalam masa yang sama hantar Xiet depan PPUM dan bila petang ambil Xiet dari PPUM... Semua tu, tanpa se sen bayaran pun! Sekali pun K.shikin tak pernah minta atau ungkit!

Kalau dulu, Xiet ni antara kategori termiskin jugak la sebab PTPTU Xiet dapat ciput gile. Iman antara yang kaya sebab dia JPA. K.shikin ngan wafa tengah2 kot. Tapi kalau Xiet takde duit nak makan, alhamdulillah tak pernah pun rasa susah sebab dorang ni macam tau tapi taknak tunjuk dorang tolong. Iman especially, dia akan buat ayat macam kononnya teringin something atau mood tengah baik blah blah blah and belanja Xiet makan. Padahal macamla Xiet tak tau dia tau Xiet takde duit. hehehe...

Kisah wafa belum lagi. Xiet dengan wafa ada satu pengalaman yang takkan dapat kami lupakan. Kes rumah terbakar. Masa kejadian rumah kami terbakar, Xiet dan wafa memang betul2 ditempat kejadian dan terperangkap di dalam kebakaran tu....

Sekarang, masing-masing ada haluan sendiri. Iman dah balik ke pankal jalan di hulu nun. K.shikin sedang mengejar Ryo nye di Jepun (jangan tersalah faham, k.shikin masih di sini). Wafa sedang berbahagia dengan Adi dan Amin nya. Xiet, masih di sini....

Namun untuk melupakan semua yang pernah Xiet lalui bersama mereka ni, Xiet rasa hanya Allah saje yang boleh melakukan itu.... Sebab kawan macam ni memang susah nak carik. Even Iman jauh, tapi masih rasa dekat. Even K.shikin dah makin giler, tapi dia masih boleh kenal Xiet. Hehehe...

Sebab tu, Xiet bertekad masa Xiet mula bertukar status dulu (single --> married), Xiet taknak jadikan alasan PERKAHWINAN MERENGGANGKAN PERSAHABATAN. sebab tu even dah kawin tapi Xiet selalu hang out dengan dorang-dorang ni semua. And terus terang Xiet cakap, Xiet tak berapa suka dengan orang yang dah kawen, lupa/tak hirau kawan. Memang kehidupan takkan sama macam dulu, tapi tak bermaksud kita pun kena berubah bersama perubahan kehidupan dn status.Dulu kita sama2 susah senang, takkan bila dah ada spouse, kita tak boleh lagi susah senang dengan kawan? Alhamdulillah Anuar pun sporting, K.Shikin, Iman and Wafa pernah tidur rumah kami and tidur sekatil lagi even Xiet dah kawen pun masa tu (Woppp,tanpa Anuar OK!)...Xiet harap bila Iman dah bertemu jodoh dan K.shikin berjumpa Ryo nye, mereka juga tak banyak berubah. Hehe..

Sebelum mengakhiri entry yang panjang ni, Xiet nak list down kan perkara-perkara yang sinonim dengan mereka2 ni (jangan marah la korang ekk... Hehehe)

Iman:-

Hantu cermin. pantang tengok cermin dia ni. Anuar siap ada gaya untuk imitate iman lagi. pastu, jangan sesekali komen ada something tak kena dengan pakaian dia unless kita ada banyak masa terluang. sebab dia sanggup tukar apa yang tek kena tu! tapi iman ni pemurah! selain pemurah senyuman (tunjuk besi kat gigi dia), dia juga mmg baik hati. jarang simpan dalam hati. nak fire or laser dia selambe je. Hehehe

K.shikin:-

Ayat femes dia 'ngokkkk', 'bongokkk' dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Dia ni otak pelik-pelik sikit la. suka berfikir outside the box (or meletakkan otaknya diluar kotak. maybe?). K.shikin ni walaupun dia tua setahun (actually 2-3 bulan je) dari kami, tapi perangai dia lebih kurang je. Nak jadikan kakak contoh pun tak boleh. Hehehe..

Wafa:-

Wafa ni...Herm, kalau ingat wafa selalu nak tergelak. Dia ni unik skit. Dia selalu berada di tempat yang lain di dalam kebanyakan topik perbualan. Kadang2 kami pulak yang conpius dengan kekonpiusan wafa. Wafa dan Adi bagi Xiet memang pasangan yang ideal.

Merambu malam2 di dtran merdeka bersama ferrari merah

Zahir:-

Dalam citer atas2 ni tak wujud nama ni, tapi tiba2 nak tulis. zahir ni.....dia J.A.H.A.T! (+_*)... Musuh ketat forever! Hehehe...

Pokecik:-

Dia ni la monster yang menyusahkan hidup kami! Buwekkkkk =p

Anuar Sajari:-

NO KOMEN! Heheheheh....

Kawan UM ni memang lain...Lain sangat...

Xiet Enigma

30/11/2010

Shah Alam

Hail Xiet, Wake up!

2010-11-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

OK Xiet, waktu bersedih sudah berlalu. It's time to wake up now, otherwise you'd be trapped in your own misery forever....

Alhamdulillah, bunch of thanx to my dearie Sis Shikin, for her big support. Dah lama tak borak dari hati ke hati dan muhasabah diri macam what we did that nite. Seriously nak carik kawan yang macamtu zaman skang memang payah. Ni pun terjumpe masa kat First kolej dulu. Haih, tiba-tiba terjiwang lak nak mengingat kenangan-kenangan kat First dulu. InsyaAllah bila free and ada mood jiwang lagi next time Xiet akan share apa yang best sangat tentang ukhuwah yang Xiet dapat masa kat first dulu :p

Anyway, memandangkan diri mahu bangkit dari tidur yang tak berapa nak lena sebab nightmares, so last saturday Xiet pun pergi ke mall yang berdekatan untuk survey2 kedai-kedai yang boleh bangkitkan kegumbiraan hati. Kedai yang paling menjadi pilihan, tak lain tak bukan mestilah kedai buku! (*_^)

Actually waktu tu tak plan nak beli banyak. Just nak beli satu dua yang boleh hiburkan hati. Tapi bila dah tengok buku, rasa macam semuanya best (a bit exaggerating. Hehe). However, memandangkan bajet yang tak berapa nak best, Xiet fokus kat buku yang boleh buat diri ni rasa up sikit (lawan bg perkataan down) and nak tanam nilai2 murni dalam diri yang semakin hilang.

So, jumpa satu buku ni, hasil karya Sheikh A'id Al-Qarni, tajuknye Muhammad As if You Can See Him. Apa yang menarik sangat tentang buku ni?

Xiet belum habis baca lagi (ceh, padahal baru bace beberapa helai m/s je). Tapi mengikut list of content, synopsis, and beberapa chapter yang Xiet sempat belek2 masa kat kedai, buku ni menarik sebab menceritakan tentang Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h; fizikal beginda, sifat dan tingkah laku, dan beberapa kisah-kisah menarik di dalam hidup baginda. Paling syok, buku ni cube membawa pembacanya untuk mengenali Prophet Muhammad bermula dari kelahirannya, sehinggalah baginda wafat. Buku ni juga menggunakan Al-Qur'an dan Hadith sebagai sumber rujukan, so bukanlah fakta yang main belasah je.

So far Xiet berpuas hati dengan buku ni. Dapat lah Xiet menambah ketebalan cinta terhadap Prophet Muhammad, dan juga dalam masa yang sama ada semangat untuk tiru nilai2 murni, sifat2 mulia yang ada pada diri baginda.

Erm... Buku lain yang Xiet beli semuanya untuk Aaron Houdd. 1 set buku terbitan Darussalam (My Twheed Book, My Du'a Book, My Prayer Book & My Wudhu' Book) dan sebuah buku yang terdiri daripada anecdotes kisah-kisah beberapa para nabi dan sahabat yang ditulis dalam bentuk yang ringkas dan menarik, bertajuk The Clever Boy by Moulana Ebrahim Muhammad.

p/s: Harap2 tak lah hangat-hangat tahi ayam je bila baca buku Al-Qarni tu.... Doakan Xiet menjadi salah sorang daripada pencinta tegar Prophet Muhammad ekk (^_^)

Wassalam

Xiet Enigma

1/11/10

Shah Alam

Seriously this is Stupid...Don't read. Hehehe...

2010-10-25T10:18:00.005+08:00

Selalunya, there's one place in friendster that I used to go to bila ada something yg terlalu berat, terlalu privacy, terlalu berkecamuk untuk I luahkan.....

Since people are now no longer a friendster's fan.... I feel even more comfortable to use that 'place' to throw whateva I want....

I used to do that since undergraduate, to be exact, since 2004!

And today, after few months being hunted by nightmares, being tortured by so many ujian, being unstable and under a major depression, I decided to visit the place and do you-know-what....

Suddenly, the page is gone! (of coz not suddenly la kan...)

I did some browsing, and the result was -the page is not available-

I know for that particular person, friendster is no longer relevant...

But to me, it is toooooo valuable....

I feel a bit lost.... frustrated.... and angry (should I?)

Owh, what should I do now?????

Begging that fella to reactivate the page again?

Nope! would never do that! begging is not my thing, especially towards that fella.. Haha

And even that fella never know yg selama ni I abuse the page. Hehehe...

Herm... Blogging? Nope! toooo public....

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Oh.... stupid me....pathetic isn't it?

I'm just nobody in the eye of that fella... Why should I bother? -Nope. the right question should be --> Why should that fella bother?!

Hey sis, go and pray to Allah lah! what else?

Ok ok.... That one I knew Okie... But this is the kind of thing that wud make you feel more release... Human man, human! not perfect!

You know, people have their own way to handle personal stuffs.

And nobody can question that unless it is something against the syariah... Rite?

So don't question mine.

Coz even my hubby is so understanding and never question -but he said it's kinda herm....how to say, childish and blah blah blah... Hahahaha...

P/S: Hey Elf, still remember me? Do you know that your page is a place where I normally throw demon, rubbish, unstable emotions, etc?

Why do you make your page vanish? Or you yourself didn't notice about it either?

I can't keep in touch with you because you don't want that to happen rite?

But you page is my best buddy ever Okie!

So tell me what should I do now?

erm..... And I miss your page.... a lot....seriously.....

-LOL-

Ni apa kes ni?! Ada kaitan ke dgn post ni? Haiya!

Perhitungan diri....

2010-10-21T02:04:00.008+08:00

Kadangkala, hidup terasa terlalu sukar. Sehiggakan terfikir mati sebagai jalan penyelesaian. Walaupun hakikatnya 'mati' itu hanyalah satu cara untuk lari daripada kebuntuan...

Kadangkala, diri rasa terpinggir. Hati rasa terlalu sakit dan kecewa. Kerana semuanya serba tak kena. Buat jahat mengundang bala, buat baik pun ada saja natijahnya.

Di mana silapnya?

Apakah dosaku hingga diduga sedemikian rupa?

Kenapa aku ya Allah? Kenapa Kau berikan aku kesusahan yang tidak mampu aku hadapi?

Kalau Allah itu Maha Mengetahui, tidakkah Dia mengetahui yang aku amat tidak berdaya untuk melalui semua ujian ini?

.........Lalu hati mula menghitung-hitung kebaikan yang selama ini dilakukan, dan kejahatan yang selama ini ditinggalkan.....

.........Lalu akal mula membanding-banding diri ini dengan insan lain....

*Sepertinya diri terlalu mulia untuk menghitung dan membanding bezakan diri ini dengan yang lain*

Namun, kerana hati yang terlalu terluka, kerana terasa rayuan dan rintihan yang tidak didengari, kerana terasa tiada yang peduli, kerana terasa Allah itu seperti sudah menghilangkan diri.....

Kerana terasa musibah tidak pernah berhenti....

Mungkin dengan kesabaran dan keredhaan, ujian tersebut menghapus dosa kita.

Mungkin dengan kerendahan hati, ujian itu mendekatkan kita kepadaNya

Mungkin dengan kelemahan diri, ujian itu menguatkan kita....

Tapi bagaimana jika ujian itu semakin menjauhkan kita daripadaNya?

Bagaimana jika ujian itu melemahkan lagi iman kita?

Bagaimana jika ujian itu menyebabkan kita membenciNya?

Wahai diri,

Ingatlah,

Apa pun yang terjadi,

Ingatlah 'dunia' yang satu lagi

Ingatlah akhirat yang kekal abadi....

Allah menguji hambaNya kerana Dia peduli

Tapi kerana apa dia menguji, Wallahua'lam, hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui....

Bukan semestinya kerana dosa kita yang menggunung tinggi,

kerana para nabi dan rasul yang mulia juga diuji dengan hebat sekali

Bukan semestinya kerana kita tidak dikasihi

Allah juga menguji hamba-hamba yang soleh dan dikasihi

Allah menguji, kerana Dia mahu menguji

Tiada kena mengena dengan jahat baiknya seseorang itu...

Jika hari ini iman terasa lemah

akidah terasa terusik

dek ujian yang menyesakkan

Mohonlah kekuatan

Mohonlah keampunan

Kerana mungkin hati merasa tidak pasti untuk apakah ujian ini

Tapi ada satu perkara yang amat pasti

iaitu Allah Maha Mengampuni....

Dia pasti mengampunkan dosa hambaNya

yang memohon keampunan kepadaNya...

Xiet Enigma

21/10/10

Shah Alam

The veil (hijab)

2010-10-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

Song by: Dawud Wharnsby Ali

Back to Basic...

2010-10-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

Dulu, masa di sekolah, bukan main baik lagi perangai... Yelah, kawan-kawan baik, otak cuma pk nak study and lulus dengan cemerlang... Kalau buat kerja-kerja nakal pun, sekadar nak suka-suka je, nak buat kenangan manis di masa hadapan... Nakal pun takla nakal mane, cuma usik-usik kawan/cikgu je...

Sekarang bila dah kerja, semua dah berubah.... Environment dah tak macam dulu. Kalau dulu, kawan-kawan saling ingat mengingati. Kalau bergadoh dengan kawan pun, pasal perkara bodoh-bodoh je (yang bila diingat balik, rasa lucu kenapa la aku amek pusing benda kecik macam tu)

Tapi sekarang, nak carik kawan yang baik macam dulu, bukannye mudah. Kawan bergelak ketawa memang lah ramai. Tapi nak carik yang betul-betul sincere berkawan dengan kita time senang dan susah?

Kalau dulu, bila tak siap kerje sekolah, atau buat salah, ada kawan baik hati nak tolong cover. Sekarang, bila tak buat salah pun, ada orang boleh fitnah supaya kita jadi orang yang bersalah...

Dulu, kalau takde duit belanja, kawan mesti tolong belanja atau share makanan... Sekarang, kawan lagi dengki kalau boleh taknak bagi kita naik pangkat atau berjaya lebih dari mereka....

Herm...Situasi macam ni dah jadi kebiasaan pada zaman serba materialistik ni...

Apa nak buat ekk?

Rilekssss!

Kalau dulu, bila ada orang hina/kutuk/perlekeh kita, kita boleh bersabar dan teruskan hidup seperti biasa, jangan pula sekarang, bila environment mula berubah, semua orang nak jadi hero, fitnah dan talam dua muka berada di mana-mana, kita pun sama menggila menjadi orang yang suka bercerita keburukan orang lain, mengumpat dan mencaci, dan yang sewaktu dengannya....

Memang tak dinafikan, kita akan menjadi defensive bila keadaan mula menjadi negatif...

Tapi ingat, jangan sampai kita pun menjadi negatif...

Bila keadaan macamni berlaku....

Back to basic....

Tenang, banyakkan istighfar dan ingat Allah...

Sebab dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang (",)

Tak apa...

Diam bukan bererti kita kalah kan kan kan?

Yang penting, Allah tahu siapa kita...

So don't ever cross the line...

Apa lagi, gambar raye lah! ^_^

2010-09-20T13:30:00.006+08:00

Aksi bebudak ketika orang tua di dalam rumah tengah melantak juadah raye.

Big happy families!

Best la tue macam tuan kat belakang sorang2... ;p

Baju raya daddy beli yay yay!

Ni keje dia time khutbah raya ekk!

Haikal....sepupu Houdd

Konon la nak setting....Gambar tak cantek mana..hihi

Uittt.... belum sedia laaa!

Back to skool deh... ^_^

Tok Daddy control macho sorang-sorang!

All the ladies. Hehehe...

Paman, Ucu, Daddy Aaron & Aaron Houdd

Aaron Houdd main sorok-sorok ekk...

Daddy kena buli!

Xiet Enigma

20 sept 2010

Shah Alam

'Eid Mubarak, 1431H

2010-09-13T10:02:00.002+08:00

Taqabbalallahu Minna Waminkum...

May Allah bless us all =)

The Voice Within: by Xiet Enigma

The status of a muslim woman

Sorry for the prev comments

Perigi cari timba - Hinakah?

Contributing to society. Sincerely or by accidental.

Seeking forgiveness from the Most-forgiving

We talk about friendship

Tolong tengok Tahajjud cinta. Saya ada share kat cerita tu. Hehe

Oh Allah, please forgive me

Hayya bil 'arabiyyah @ TV Al-hijrah

1Malaysia: A chain is no stronger than its weakest link

Pesta Ibadah a.k.a The festival of worship

I LOVE YOU Ramadhan by AimanAzlan

Salam Ramadhan, 1432H

A visit with a bestie

Some preparation...

Something worth reading (for truly Malaysia)...trust me!

How do you confront death?

The hardest thing(s) to do....

Quick update

Jasa yang tidak terbalas....

Dear You, si stalker...

Tolong sevey rumah boleh?

A sad love story...

An excellent muslim sportswoman...

Tanda-tanda penyakit Wahan!

The Climb...It Cheers me Up.

Cik adik kena paksa join organisasi ke?

To wear the hijab or Not?

How to make excuses? Gile ke pe!

An Interview with a feminist: Yvone Ridley

Islam bukan hanya pada nama.

Bolehke awak jadi sekuat & setabah Datin Seri Azizah?

Penyambung Ukhuwwah

Petua Cikgu Bio

Merong Mahasuasa...

Aku rinduuuuu banget...

Student yang duduk rumah jaga anak

#1 GOOD Muslim: SAVE THE EARTH!

Manusia toxic, manusia nutritious (*__*)

My hijab my style!

Siapa yg kau chenta?

Aku membosankan?

Azam...

17 January @ 27 YO

YOU aren't perfect, so don't expect to get a perfect spouse

Semua orang dah ada pesbuk!

Jauh perjalanan, luas pengalaman

MODE: mengimbau kenangan silam

Hail Xiet, Wake up!

Seriously this is Stupid...Don't read. Hehehe...

Perhitungan diri....

The veil (hijab)

Back to Basic...

Apa lagi, gambar raye lah! ^_^

'Eid Mubarak, 1431H

Manusia toxic, manusia nutritious (__)